Are you still in San Diego? There's a large and active LGBT group there. You do need to find some sort of counseling to help you -- being gay isn't anything to feel guilty about. And, you need help putting a better life together, getting away from drugs. Stay in the homeless shelter, go to work, get all the counseling and support you can. Try to eat some healthy stuff every day, and try to exercise outside in the sun every day.
Hortensia
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my life is a mess need some advice
by deservingone26 inso if you read thru my previous posts from years ago u can see a little background of my life.
to do a quick summary i was df'd at 19, got into the party lifestyle which included party drugs and lots of alcohol.
at 24 i decided to step bacdk and really try to get my life in order.
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Question for exjws who are now atheist..
by EndofMysteries inthis question is for athiests who had been jw's, and when leaving, had to pretty much start fresh (if most of your association had been jw's).. to help you better answer the question, here is first the reason i am asking it.
my whole life and assocation were jw's only.
when i left, it was at first being pretty isolated while making new friends/etc from scratch.
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Hortensia
I didn't join any groups or religions, didn't want to do so. I eventually made friends with people at school, people at work, that sort of thing. I have friends who seem like family to me.
As for humanitarian work, I donate to local causes to help the people in this town and the neighboring areas.
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DAMAGE CONTROL BEGINS!!!!
by msconcerned injust when you think you can trust people, even family you cant!!
i have put out some feelers to gauge reaction and thoughts.
even though many feel the morale is bad they will turn on you in a heartbeat.
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Hortensia
Sorry to hear that -- well, back-pedal and see whether you can smooth things over. They are a bunch of really awful gossips, even the ones you think are nice and intelligent.
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Interview with an apostate: Hortensia
by Hortensia intell us a little about yourself and your family.. divorced, no children.
two sisters, various cousins, aunts, uncles.
none of them jws any more.. were you a born in or a convert?.
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Hortensia
I loved visiting China. I remember visiting the Great Wall for the first time. We Americans were taking pictures of the Mongolians who were there that day, and they were taking pictures of us. One of the Mongolians asked me if he could take a picture using sign language. I said OK so he lined up a whole bunch of tiny Chinese people in uniform to stand around me, and he took the picture. I have this phantasy of my picture being in a scrapbook in a yurt in Mongolia. "Yes, this is the giant long-nose we met at the Great Wall of China. Look how big her feet are!" Also the same day an incredibly ancient Chinese woman came up and felt my boobs - the Chinese have tiny boobs and she didn't believe mine were real until she squeezed them and I squawked.
I have loads of funny stories about China. I loved visiting there and learned a lot.
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Interview with an Apostate: Laika
by Laika intell us a little about yourself and your family.. i grew up on a small island south of england.
my parents moved there from mainland uk and left their families behind.
as noone else in the family is a jw and lived in different countries i don't know any of them that well.
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Hortensia
Through most of my life I imagined I would not make it through Armageddon, so freeing myself of this terror and guilt was a massive relief.
Yes, exactly how I felt!
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Could we quantify how many posters their are from different nations ? Would you like to know ?
by smiddy inmaybe its just me , i`m just curious as to how many people on this site are from australia as i am .
how many from germany , italy , zambia , etc.
etc.. do two or three "countries " seem to dominate the threads ?
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Hortensia
crmsicl -- the State of Jefferson is a source of amusement. I don't know how they think it could really happen.
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Interview with an Apostate: Cofty
by cofty intell us a little about yourself and your family.. my wife and i are fortunate to live in a lovely little country cottage northumberland in northern england.
we have two children who have both grown up and left home.
our son is a physical training instructor in the royal air force and our daughter works in the historic city of york.. were you a born in or a convert?.
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Hortensia
Thanks -- I'm enjoying these interviews. I hope we have more of them to come.
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Interview with an Apostate: Dazed but not confused
by dazed but not confused intell us a little about yourself and your family.. my wife and i are born ins.
we have 2 beautiful children.
whenever i run into jws i knew, they usually give me a hug and tell me they miss me.. how long have you now been out?.
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Hortensia
You have a sweet family.
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Interview with an Apostate: Julia Orwell
by Julia Orwell intell us a little about yourself and your family.. i have a husband and we've been married nearly three years.
no kids.. were you a born in or a convert?.
convert- converted from atheism in my teens.. are your parents / family jws?.
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Hortensia
Hey Julia, go ahead and write. Writers write, it's what they enjoy and how they express themselves. You've got plenty of time to develop a writing career. Write every day, rewrite a lot, share your writing with folks who will be helpfully critical. Get going!
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Finally getting a shepherding call... or so I thought
by Zoos ina few weeks ago i got a visit from a sister from the old congregation.
she was our uber pioneer, fearless, regular and often accompanied by her husband, a ministerial servant.
she didnt know i lived here so it was a brief visit after she found out i had disassociated myself.. i got a knock at the door a few minutes ago and it was her husband this time.
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Hortensia
How nice of you, and how brave of him to approach you for some help and validation. I'd love to get a "return visit" like that.