Another good line the elders use to pass you over for promotion err privliges. Is to tell you that maybe JAH is testing you and you need to show a waiting attitude
God. This is bringing back old memories. Some of the friends noticed what happened and were not pleased. An MS from the hall approached the CO about it and wanted me to get in on the action. I decided to take the "humble," wait-on-Jehovah route instead. I was really devastated. It wasn't just being passed over, but the year and a half I spent as a regular pioneer was one of the worst periods in my life. I felt like I was being constantly belittled and the pretty picture of Jehovah's loving organization was vanishing before my eyes. There was little to no support from the BOE, that's for sure. They didn't like my proactive attitude. Anyhow, to make a long story short, my faith in God was on very shaky ground. Because of this, I ended up making some mistakes. I went to the elders to confess and there was the confirmation that the elders needed to confirm that they were right in taking their time with me. I wasn't spiritually ready to handle more responsibility. Bastards. They shattered my faith in God; I failed to live up to the high standards of the WTBTS as a result of my weakened state, and that confirmed they were right all along.
The irony is that they began to take a liking to me after that. I slowed down considerably because I felt I wasn't worthy of serving Jehovah. They were ready to appoint me MS not long after that, but I wanted no part of it. From a JW perspective, I kept going down the tubes and it made it impossible for them to appoint me because of it. Looking back, I needed to go through all of that to realize that it was all a farce. What can you do? I just try to extract life lessons from all of that and move on with my life.