Hambeak,
Get well soon!
BFD
had chest pain again monday the 11th thought it was a heart attack again.
i told the docs the meds aren't working.
now after extensive tests, i am told i have mold spores in my lungs.
Hambeak,
Get well soon!
BFD
as i was driving home from work tonight i was feeling uneasy which was unusual for me and then it occured to me that it was a close friends death anniversary(13-06-93), reflecting on my way home i thought of the good times that we had(i had known this person since i was 7 till he died at 16) and for the first time in many years this year i have felt at ease with this as the previous years i have always been a mess.. i still think of others who have died over the years but think of the positive and no longer feel the sad pain anymore.
have i moved on?.
so i ask how long does it take to actually get over the pain and hurt from loved ones dieing?.
My father died on February 22, 2001 and I still miss him every day. I was physically ill from grief for weeks after his death. Everyone says time heals but I do not think I'll ever not miss him. At least I can think about him and not cry most times anymore.
This is a heartbreaking thread. My sympathy to you all for your losses.
BFD
this is something that just popped in my mind suddenly.. but i was thinking about over the years the many comments of jws about loved ones.
for instance, one sister was speaking of her disgust with her children not accepting the "truth".
she gladly tells anyone of what she told them; that if they don't accept it before armageddon that it's too bad.
No matter how I try to understand this line of thinking I just cannot. My mom has not even met all of her grandchildren. I always suspected she thinks that her family is better off dead. If I ever heard her say anything to that effect I would back hand the old lady across the mouth. Pay backs are a bitch. Come to think of it, she is safer now that she shuns me. Like someone else said, "Good riddance to bad trash".
BFD- of the angry, sick and tired class who wrote he'd hit his mother but never would although thinking about it doesn't feel bad.
i have been invited to a meetup in july.
it will be my first and the first for ex-jws in my area.
how are they structured?
I went to my first meet-up in April this year in NYC. It was at Dave & Busters in Times Square. Very informal, just a bunch of people meeting for drinks and food. I have trouble hearing when there is a lot of back ground noise and that place was very noisy. Other than that I had a good time and met a few JWD posters and some other people.
There's no reason to be nervous. Go and have fun.
BFD
dear friends,.
one of my greatest enjoyments is a daily walk.
i see things in far greater detail than when i am driving by.
Hi Coco,
Yesterday I noticed how wonderfully green everything is again. All the trees are full leafed. I usually take my dogs for a long walk in the town park (it's huge) and there are trails that go round and about along the Susquehana River. I like it there because I usually have the park to myself as not many people use it. I take this time to reflect and listen to the stillness and quiet. I have learned to see things a bit differently recently and part of it is because of my quiet reflective moments in the park.
My neighborhood is very nice. Across the street from me is a wooded hill that gives me an "in the woods" feel when I look out the front of my house. But it really is very "suburban residential". My neighbor next door is a widow and she is an amazing gardener. She grows the most spectacular flowers and she always shares them with me. I planted a vegetable garden this year and it is coming along nicely. I planted 3 types of tomatos, bell peppers, cucumber, eggplants, garlic, basil, Italian parsley, pumpkins, rubarb and strawberries. I got my first strawberry yesterday. Yummy! The plants are loaded with strawberries, I just hope the squirells don't get them before I do!
I really do enjoy my neck of the woods. Oh, and I forgot to mention that I also planted a Magnolia tree, marigolds, two rodedendrun bushes, a weeping birch tree, a bleeding heart bush, iris', pansies, geraniums and many many day lilys.
BFD
ok so i here i am about to turn eighteen next month and im staring off into the oblivion otherwise known as the rest of my life.
i'm young, fairly healthy, and anxious...for what?
don't ask me.... hormones raging through my body and ive done so many "disfellowshipping" offenses recently that its almost embarassing lol no actually i feel no regret ironically enough and havn't caused any pain for me or any otheres.
How did you get so damn smart? Oh and welcome back!
BFD
i'll start with a couple.....jws believe that everything in revelation is symbolic except the number 144,000.. jws believe that donating blood is wrong.
yet jws can accept "blood fractions" which can only be recieved if one donates blood!.
The number one ridiculous JW belief is...
"We have the truth"
BFD
and armageddon is not here yet.
in fact, i passed several churches of the catholic and protestent denominations.
and i thought that those churches were supposed to be destroyed before the great tribulation which was supposed to culminate in armageddon.
I thought there would be more fire and brimstone falling from the sky and huge cracks opening up to swallow all us worldly people up. As a matter of fact the big pothole in the street by my house has been filled in. This must be paradise.
Is anyone hosting an after armageddon party tonight?
BFD
if a new policy arose stating that everyone could return and start afresh, would you ever think about returning----especially if you had family and friends in that would now talk to you again?
?
F#*&K NO, Grandpa!
BFD
Like tio said my family can talk to me THEY choose not to.
literally and figuratively.... if you don't know my story, its the basic "i'm gay and from a family of jws" and lately it hasn't been going well.
i'm still saving up to move out, but that "meeting" i was suppose to have with the elders is scheduled tonight.
it was scheduled tuesday night but i dodged that bitch hard.
Saywhat,
Sorry you're going through this now. When my JW mom found out I was gay 28 years ago I still remember her exact words. She said to me, "How can you deprive me of a son?"
After that diddy it turned ugly. I have two older brothers that treated her like shit and I was the son who always stood by her and supported her through thick and thin. Of course I pointed that out to her as I packed my bags and left in a fury. I lived on the streets for about two weeks before I found somewhere to live. I was 19 years old and homeless.
Please, no matter how bad you think things are do not even contemplate suicide. I would be happy to share more of my experience with you. If you think it would help, pm me.
BFD