What, now I'm going to give you advice on what to write?? No way- you are a hero to me.
But...
I do love this statement
I mean, you were such a spiritual person, even working in the Writing Department at Bethel!
I guess would say- you know- being a "spiritual person" or having spirituality is about so much more than where you work. "Spiritual" is understanding how you relate to the universe. You remember how Jesus said, "By your fruits you will recognize them." Well, I found some real rotten fruit. Things that were being done in secret were nothing like Christ. Keep your mind open. Think carefully about the meaning of things. Just because you were raised to believe something, doesn't mean you can't ask questions. Questions are the start of growth.