Maddie

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  welcome to the halloween party

  by John Doe in

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  kick back and have fun.

  might i suggest bobbing for apples?.

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  BOB DYLAN I mean c'mon, is he really all that?

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  The only thing I don't like about Bob Dylan is his voice. Apart from that I think he is brilliant!

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  The Trick or Treaters are here!

  by lovelylil in

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  kids have been knocking about an hour now.

  they all look soooo cute in their little costumes.

  this is my 2nd halloween and it is great so far.

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  We only had a couple of knocks at the door tonight but the first time we opened the door there were about 15 kids thereand 5 adults!!!!!!!! My husband gave out loads of toffee apples and sweets so we didn't get any tricks to contend with

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  Slowly killing myself

  by 5thGeneration in

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  just got back from the doctor and he was alarmed at my liver function test.

  he sent me for an ultrasound of my liver and i'm being tested for hep.. problem:.

  my drinking way too much is because i have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but can't.

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  Hello 5th - I understand what you are feeling like simply because I have been where you are now with alcohol. I spent the first year in AA recovery trying to figure out why, when and how I was an alcoholic. Then I realised that it didn't really matter because the fact was that I couldn't drink "normally" any more. Some of us drink to deaden the pain we are feeling and it works for a while, but eventually the drink becomes a problem in itself. Alcohol is a depressant drug and when abused make us sick mentally, physically and spiritually.

  I have the same situation as you with my family being JW's and me living a lie but wanting to leave. The decision of whether to be true to myself and risk alienating those dearest to me is one of the hardest I have ever had to make in my whole life. I have made the decision to make the break and disassociate because the alternative is too destructive to me personally.

  Look after yourself, get well and then you will be in a better place to decide what is best for you.

  Maddie .
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  The psychological effects of faking dubism

  by LtCmd.Lore in

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  well, i've known the truth about the witnesses for over two years.

  and i've been pretending to be one ever since.

  i'm sure most of us did that for a period of time, some longer than others.. i think it has changed my personality, especially since i've been a teenager the whole time.. .

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  I think you have a strength of mind far beyond your tender years. Coping with living a double life is extremely demanding mentally but hopefully you won't be doing it for too long.

  I think that it calls for great discipline, which is a big asset in life. The psychological effects are another matter though and for me personally I find it too destructive.

  I wish you well and am sure that you will make the right decisions at the right time for you.

  Maddie
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  Were you ever afraid of demons?

  by Regretful_J in

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  hello everyone, my story is a unique one i suppose but here it goes.,, ever since i was a little boy whenever i would voice my objections about this religion my parents would tell me im making satan happy and that i'm inviting demons into are house by saying and thinking things like this.

  my parents are such religious fanatics that it seems like nothing i do can ever be good enough for them.

  to this day they always claim that they come down hard on me like this because "they're trying to protect me".

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  I have always been a little bit nervous about "things that go bump in the night", but I had an experience that really terrified me!!!!!!!

  I wasn't feeling well so was laying on my sofa watching the TV - it was day time and I was alone in the house. Suddenly, the channels on the TV started flicking from one to the other on their own, then the washing machine turned itself on. I got in a panic and thought I was being attacked by demons. I didn't know what to do so I phoned the Electric Board and told them what was happening and they said they would send someone out because there was probably a faulty connection. By the time someone came, the problem had stopped but the electrician looked at my electric meter and said it needed replacing and that it could have been the cause of the problem.

  It never happened again thank goodness but it really freaked me out and I was a nervous wreck for ages afterwards.

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  Here's to dreams....

  by changeling in

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  in looking over some of my recent posts and pm's to several of you on here, i see, (and it's been pointed out to me) that my dreamy side may be taking over.. i write this not in a defensive mode but merely as a reflection on the matter.. you are right, so many of us (and all of us, at any given time in our lives) are suffering "tangible" problems.. my heart goes out to each and every one of you and i sincerly hope your situation will reverse itself or be resolved in a positive way in the very near future.. i am not a "total flake".

  i am actually pretty good to have around in a crisis.

  at the drop of a hat i can clean your entire house, cook a meal for 25 and change your colostomy bag.

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  Dreams have always been a big part of my life. By this I mean that I often escaped into a world of make believe dream world as a child when the reality was too painful for me.

  Like you Changeling, that doesn't mean that I am a complete air head. At a young age I was put in the role of carer to my sick mother and when she died I looked after the family while still goingto school.

  My dreams have, at difficult times, been my refuge.

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  Anyone else get baptised at BOWES ROAD North London?

  by nicolaou in

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  are you my bowes rd buddy?.

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  Yes I did and I remember it well.

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  How many of you are still affected by "Armageddon?"

  by Soledad in

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  i know i am, or at least now i'm finally willing to admit it.

  when making future plans, i still have "jehovah's day" in the back of my mind.

  i never caught myself doing that until fairly recently, and i just realized that it was holding me back in many ways.

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  I still have a reaction when I hear about a terrible world event or something really evil that happens to someone, but the difference is that I now recognise it as coming my from the JW conditioning process.

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  Feeling kinda sad...

  by changeling in

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  my happy bubble is deflating.

  i'm looking at the richmond and toronto apostafest pics and i'm longing for company.. it's been a really long time since i enjoyed good company and warm friendship.

  even before we became inactive our friendships with witnesses had waned.. i really am very social.

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  I am sorry you are feeling down changeling and hope you don't feel sad for too long..

  It's strange isn't it that sometimes I feel like isolating from everyone, and other times I just long to be around people and entertain or party.

  I would like to meet people that post on JWD in time, as it's amazing the connection we can feel for people we never see.

  Thinking of you

  Maddie