so one year of lots of questions and showing doubts, and missing quite a few meetings but still going out in service, doing mics, reading, hall projects...then i get the new light from society regarding the letter i sent them (wow, stunned me, blew me away) and i let them know how i felt about it and i quit the ministry after 40 active years.
nobody says anything about this, no counsel, no will you go out with us on saturday.
not a single "were is your time for the month" phone call.
oompa,
thanks for sharing your experience. i'm so sorry for all you've been through. life hasn't been easy for you. when i read your posts they are so sad. are you depressed? i hope you can find some happiness in life....maybe a day out on the ocean would cure your woes. the elements can be healing and refreshing. your in my thoughts and prayers.
jeanette
first, let me introduce myself.
i am a spanish speaking woman, 2nd generation jw, who lives outside the united states.
so, please forgive if i make mistakes in my writing.. .
Akira,
Welcome to the forum. I think the advice to take it slow is wise. I've tried to attend churches, but that doesn't get it for me as too much wt programming floods into my mind. Know that God loves you just the way you are and you don't have to do anything out of the ordinary to earn his love. It's called GRACE. I asked Jesus to reside in my heart and life has been good. Just be a good person and be open to following whatever you find. Best wishes in your journey.
Jeanette
my mom went to the doctor last week and while she was waiting to be seen she noticed that awake magazines were all over the lobby.
there wasnt any other magazines to be read.
she happened to look in a trash can and noticed that it was full of "worldly" magazines.
go mom!! that is too cute. thanks fo sharing
hi everyone ( "a great crowd ....
") with my first ever post .... i discovered this site a couple of wks ago and have lurking nearly every day since!
wow - what a fantastic forum - really impressed with the support and validation i see here.
welcome enz. i'm new here also, but left the borg 7 years ago, more or less on my own. your right about the validation. it's priceless.
at least mine don't anyway.. ive been thinking of there behaviour towards me for the last few weeks, and im just so over them being my parents.
when mike and i went to the hosp on wed night after my nan had passed away, i tried to comfort my mum, she hardly wanted me to touch her.
i didnt even look at my dad for the first half n hour we were there.
That is so sad how your parents treated you. Sorry about your nan's passing. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
having posted here in the past, and having gained much useful and appreciated advise, my ex and i are still in contact, and stuck in as many of you warned, a deadlock.
he hoping i will come round to the witness way of "thinking" and i hoping that he will wake up and smell the roses!..
i am reluctant to give up on the relationship, and feel that as he approaches the two year mark since being baptised as a witness, he is beginning to show cracks and is weakening in his stance.
Do whatever you can do to challenge his intellect with other interests. Encourage him to take classes at a local university. Travel together, visit places of interest-museums, zoos, concerts. Introduce him to and meet educated and good people so he can see JW's don't hold the monopoly on goodness. Focus on the positive things in life. There's a lot of goodness if one looks for it. Talk to him about GRACE and how God loves us just the way we are. We don't have to do anything to earn his love. This will counteract all the crap he's being fed at the meetings.
i didn't cry when my mother died.
i didn't cry when i saw her laying lifeless in the hospital bed, nor did i cry at the funeral.
my mother used to say bring me my flowers while i'm alive.
Sorry to hear about your loss. I didn't cry when my mother passed away, but we were enstranged at the time. She suffered from mental illness and I was happy that she was no longer unhappy.
Your emotions and tears at the dr. office were normal. I'm glad you didn' t end up in a psyche ward for being human and crying. It sounds like you kept alot in and your response was within the realm of normal. The same thing would happen if a garden hose that's running was kept against the ground. The water will only remain contained so long and then it squirts out all over. On the other hand if it is allowed to flow out without restraint it's manageable.
After trying to stuff emotions for so long it can be hard to identify or name what you are feeling. Are you happy, sad, angry, frustrated, confused? Every emotion is normal, it's what we do with them that can be unhealthy. Try to put words to what your going through and find a trusted confidant to talk to. Take Care.
we know there are a lot of "lurkers" here.
they might not have posted yet but they do check this site out.
would you like to express anything to them to help them in any way??
Your mind is a gift, don't let anyone take it away by telling you what or how to think.
Think for yourself, be accountable for your own decisions.
good morning!.
last night i got disfellowshiped.
isn't that wonderful?
hats off to you for not playing their game and getting upset.
enjoy your freedom. hope you can help the friends that spoke to you.
i've been lurking here for a few years on and off.
i faded from the borg seven years ago and haven't had one regret since.
the only regret i have is wasting twenty years of my life and my children's lives.
fresia,
you named the elder game perfectly. it was akin to the heirarchy of caretakers in the institution. no one with any heart could stay very long. i think that's what drew me to the organization in the first place, it felt like "home" I remember visiting Bethel and thought I could fit in very well there. I 'm grateful I've found myself and enjoy being a very relaxed person without too much structure in my life. It's not who I am.
