Nice Comment Aleman, I think you have an uncanny ability to provoke either the best in people or the worst. Either way it incites communication and discussion.
There's nothing wrong with being "happy" as you say in your comment, but I ask you, do you really believe most Witnesses are Happy Serving Jehovah? Do they really believe they are serving Jehovah with our regimented field service arrangement? I dont think so. I believe that most JW's feel they are serving an Organization as I do.
As for your Numbers 12:1-10 comment: I think this forum for me personally is Therapeutic. Life as a Jehovahs Witness is extremely difficult, When I come onto this forum I feel like I can say anything, without the feeling of Anxiousness, Fearfulness, Dreading ect. ect. Because I know that if I make any comment not In agreement with the WT magazine to anyone in my Circle of Friends, I will be in deep trouble. Why is that? Have you asked yourself that? If I say anything opposite to WT doctrine even if it is false now, but turns into truth 50 years from now, I am worthy on Death forever. Seems strange.
Anyways Aleman, life is short, be true to yourself.