Joel,
I wont tell you I totally understand because Im not you. I dont know exactly what you are feeling right now.
I can tell you that I once wanted to end it all, stop the pain. At that point, I felt I had no control over my life. I have no idea why my attempt didnt succeed, probably because I was young and didnt know what the hell I was doing.
All I can say now is that if I would have been successful, I wouldnt be here right now. I am not in the same place I was during that time. I know more. Im less confused. I feel less guilty. I have two beautiful children, a new family, friends who I care about and piece of mind.
Im not sure if you understand but I guess what Im trying to say is, I found out that "right now" is not "all" there is. There can be more but how will we find out if we just quit, ya know?
Edited by - heaven on 20 November 2002 17:56:7