i was a gung-ho advocate for jws.
i got on the message boards and would argue down any detractor, apostate, church pastor, disgruntled ex-jw, you name it... i was out in the ministry constantly, practically running from door to door, preaching.
i started studies left and right.
i was trapped into a jc for telling my abusive wife that i had enough of her bs and was leaving. the elders asked if they could offer some encouragement. last minute they call up a third elder and it turns into a jc without me even knowing whats goin on!!
elders are hypocrites on powertrips!
i need to get rid of it.. when i was a kid, the brothers would always get on stage and talk about what an abudant buffet of spiritual food from jehovah's table we will receive.
when i was a kid i use to take everything so literally, so i would imagine a buffet of ham, chicken, macncheese (the most creamy mac n cheese, candy yams, turkey, corn bread).
i used to wish that the brother would finish with the prayer so we could get to old county buffet, so i could get to the literal food.. .
what you need to do is relax and take a shit while reading the latest watchtower or awake. when done, bag the shit (paper bags rip and burn best) proceed to take the bag to your local kingdumb hell and just after the prayer, spark it up and lay a few knocks on the door. proceed to the nearest bushes and watch as elder knowitall and his ms cronies stomp the shit outta that bag. this should clear up that spiritual gas and even cure any spiritual constipation thats probably the root cause.
repeat until the spiritual gas is gone.
so lately ive been getting friend requests from jw's who i knew from before i faded.
now my mom is on facebook and just sent a friend request, ya cant ignore your moms request...lol!.
i will accept her and this will probably be the end to my fade.
thanks for the tips ladies and gents, but i think im gonna just see how it all plays out. like i said, i really could care less if my jw friends and family see pictures of me having a good ole time with my "real" friends. maybe it'll wake em up. im sick of having to put on the whole facade/ sherade of something im not!
if they really wanna be my friend then so be it. if they wanna step into my new life with my real friends and family and criticize, then they can literally eff off. i dont need or want their conditional love.
first and foremost, i would like to clarify that i am in no way making fun of jack barr.
he is dead and deserves respect.. .
that said, the organization he belonged to and led doesn't deserve any respect.
i bet i know why they are "immortalizing" all these governing body motherfockers....wait....wait.....cuz as these old farts really start dying off, then we'll have real kings to worship in heaven!!! nevermind jesus christ. we'll have all the bullshitters from new york all regrouped in heaven whom we can worship and give thanks to everyday!! and they can continue to direct the crooked wts business from heaven when theyre all dead. the worst part is that the rank and file jw would prolly eat it all up.
lol! just sayin.
so lately ive been getting friend requests from jw's who i knew from before i faded.
now my mom is on facebook and just sent a friend request, ya cant ignore your moms request...lol!.
i will accept her and this will probably be the end to my fade.
yeah i really dont care. lol! ive had the religion discussion with my folks before and i sent em both with their tales between their legs. they basically dont try to preach to me anymore as i have made it abundantly clear that i dont wanna be pissed on and told its raining. they got the point but told me that theyd have to do what they have to do if i get diffed. i said no problem, we all have to do what we gotta do. it sux tho cuz im close with my parents but i will not live a lie for their sakes. on the plus side, maybe their shunning tactic will backfire. like i toldem, "my door will always be open to non-believers" as long as you respect me for who i am and not what i believe"
reading about the mass amounts of money involved in all this acquisition of blocks of properties... in new york city no less, .
is so contrary to how the organization expects it's loyal "servants" to live their lives, .... it is shocking!!
these buildings are, for the most part (maybe all) renovated with free labour and then sold for great fortunes.
i wouldnt be surprised if a few elders pay for their suv's with the congregation cash. all that cash floating around in little boxes at assemblies and kh's. im sure jehovah wont mind, afterall brother bullshitter, and sister backstabber are using that suv to go out in field service...and who are we to judge?
so lately ive been getting friend requests from jw's who i knew from before i faded.
now my mom is on facebook and just sent a friend request, ya cant ignore your moms request...lol!.
i will accept her and this will probably be the end to my fade.
so lately ive been getting friend requests from jw's who i knew from before i faded. now my mom is on facebook and just sent a friend request, ya cant ignore your moms request...lol!. i will accept her and this will probably be the end to my fade. i know ill get some questions about my photos being out with worldly girls at bars drinking. oh and i think i have a few pics of me smoking too. talk about a reality check. i could go and limit their access, etc, but i just dont care anymore and thats all there is to it. long live the freedom to be what you want!!
thanks alot facebook. i couldnt have done it without ya!!
i only recently decided to change course in my life but am surprised at the daily reminders of what i have to be grateful for.
by this, i mean, things i have spent my life worrying about, or torturing myself with, that is no longer a concern:.
no more door-to-door humiliationno more guilt about not doing enoughi can get rid of most of the dresses in my wardrobe since i didn't like them anywayno more nylons rolling down my abdomen and causing my thighs to itchno more required reading and preparationno more talksno more conventions and all the headaches connected to themsummer is wide openweekly planning is no longer contingent upon meeting nightno more miserable weekends of morning service and morning meetingwhat are you grateful for?.
things i am grateful for...
laying in the sun in the summer, giving to the homeless, seeing my boys laugh and be happy, my true friends, going on a completely random date with someone you meet outta the blue, playing my guitar, good food.
i was raised from the age two as a witness by my new recruit parents in 1981. i was born in 79.. i didn't like being jw, and that didn't mean i was a saint.. and my parents were fanatical and still are.. i have an an older sister and a younger brother and we are all 2 years apart.. my brother and i were a riot.
mischeivious, rambuctious, hyperactive and not afraid of nothing.. we had games over the years.. like singing in british accents during the songs(and during bible reading at family study) and screwing with the word just loud enough for each other to hear.. we used to have armrest battles when we sat beside eachother.
pushing elbows until the other slipped and got in trouble.
i remember i would do the same with my older bro. one time there was this particularly booming older brother giving the talk and we were horsing around, he boomed his loud voice over to us and said "isnt that right young brothers " we were scared shitless and sat like little mice till the talk was over. he reminded me of rutherford.
http://www.neave.com/strobe/.
ok, hit the click this to get trippy link.
then stare at the moving screen for 30 seconds.
demons and sorcery!! i knew the witnesses were on to something when they warned of the devil on the net!! lol!! :-)
