Posts by nolongerwaiting

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Growing up a gay Jehovah's Witness (My Life Story)

by m0nk3y in

i feel the need to express how i feel and felt about my life as a gay man.

i was brought up from birth as a jehovahs witness.

this has played a major part in my life and it has been a real struggle to get past.

Discussion involving my Dad & other long timers - Mood is definately different

by Doubting Bro in

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i've seen several posts relating to the mood among longtime jws here recently.

i thought i would add to that collection and recount a discussion i recently had with my dad and a small group of folks about his age.

quick background on the group:.

nolongerwaiting

Welcome infpalex!! The no family thing is a hard one indeed. I'm glad that you moved on and found happiness.

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They are stalking me,,

by gabriella in

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i recently moved back to my home town after being away for several years and doing the "fade".

i have family still in, so people heard that i was back in town.

i got six invitations to the memorial and a couple of phone calls about the special talk.

New ex-JW memoir coming out...

by brizzzy in

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i don't post a ton here because i'm kinda shy.

http://www.amazon.com/dp/0373892357?tag=thegirsguitoh-20&camp=14573&creative=327641&linkcode=as1&creativeasin=0373892357&adid=038ez4bjpam7bcsze5mq&.

that's the amazon link (which is currently the most affordable, i believe, but it's also available for preorder at b&n, borders, indiebound, and indigo-chapters if you're in canada, if you prefer one of those retailers).. .

nolongerwaiting

Congrats!

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New member - my story

by Millions in

just a brief introduction, i thought i would try out one of the more established forums, have done some stuff on youtube and other places but thought i would give this a try.. potted history: raised jw by mother, in it for 30 years or so, baptised at age 18, regular pioneer at 20, ms a couple years later, mts at 26 and got assignment to a new cong, elder at around 29, came off pioneering around 31, came off as elder around 32, started to slowly wind down, completely stopped attending about 3 years ago, disassociated dec 2010. pause for breath.. the last 5 years or so have been a painfully gradual process of deconstructing myself and then piecing together fragments of my shattered life that are still valid outside the organisation.

the question 'who am i?

' has been a continual investigation; every day for the first couple of years i would realise another subject or issue that i didn't have my own opinions about.

nolongerwaiting

WELCOME!!!

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hey.......Hello

by Snowboarder in

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hey what's up everone?

i'm new to here.

it took a while for me to get this hard feelings out of my system....yup....i'm 18 and i'm on my last year of high school...this year i'm taking it online i don't mind it's ok..i do miss the people at school..as u know my parents r jw and i'm one too...i am very active and i do it all for my parents and to avoid confllict but recenlty i just don't like some of bans no what u can and can't do...i'm behind on school beacuse i reg pio...i'm a active person...i really want to leave this reglion beacuse one i can't visit my family grandparents and cousins in europe beacuse they "worldly"....this for me is bs...so stupid....it's my family... if i do leave the jw it's not like i'm going to do drugs and drink or smoke...my goals r to be in the olympics and to start snowboard cross...i'm going to join a snowboard club next season....i don't care anymore about what people think...it's not like i'm doing something bad..it's something that will bring me joy....today my mom was questioning me like crazy about my new jw friend that i ski with....there was a friend of a friend last year that i hang out once with he was a so called good exmaple but he quit the jw and started drinking and smoking so...yup he's dumb...now my mom is like questioning every i associate with..i hardly have any friends and my life sucks..i want to make it better by snowboard more...i'm allowed to go every secound day as long as i prepair for the crappy propangda meetings....ya...support is hard when my parents don't support my dreams but when i do get in the olympics u have only myself to thank beacuse every time i pratice i have bad snowboard days and good i feel like crying at the mountain my heart breaks i want to be faster and better...i want to be the best.. i told my mom i want to be the best snowboarder out there for snowboard cross and she was like humble yourself and all this jw crap...i just don't know how to put it into words.....it's like a backworkd train...i tried to a last attemt at this jw by trying to join a foriegn group...but it failed bad and that was like the straw that broke my back...years of holding my back of trainnign and being active is making me to go crazy ....it's hard i'm just trying to get my pain out when u fall on your snowborad u have to encorage your self u have to train your self u have to push yourself..i wish i could start life all over agian...the war in my country runid a large part and now this....when ur younger u don't know better and this relgion seems good but when u age and watch the olympics like i do and then watch it live...i got a job at the vanoc thing so i was there...it's a different experience to race ....my country did not do so well and i wish i could represent them and get a gold medal....u know it would make my life better....and bring hope to tons of people facing the same story as me....i was a jw from when i was 10 so i kindof miss chirstmas and holidays but i don't care anymore.....my dad came home talk latter.

nolongerwaiting

WELCOME!! I hope you can make your dreams a go!

NLW's wife

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Elder Missing 24 hours...

by sleepingbeauty in

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a brother i know of was made up as an elder only some mere 6 weeks ago.

out the blue he has gone total awol and has now been missing over 24 hours.

i wonder if the stress of becoming an elder at 27 yrs old got to him !!!

nolongerwaiting

I hope he's okay too. :(

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An interesting weekend. :D

by FifthOfNovember in

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on friday it was about 70 where i live, so my cousin (who is an unbaptised j-dub) and i decided to play some tennis.

as we were walking out of a store (we were looking for tennis balls) i see two older j-dubs driving by, staring at us.

i havn't been to the meetings in months and i think they were shocked to see me with a beard.

nolongerwaiting

Eeeks!

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Did you make very good comments at the Kingdom Hall?

by Iamallcool in

did you study beforehand?

alot?

did you only "study" while you are reading the paragraphs during the wt study and still make great comments?.

nolongerwaiting

Ah, the guilt that if you didn't answer you didn't love god and you were just being selfish....

So my heart would race as I raised my hand, hating every moment of it. Then the intense relief when it was over, or the dread because I didn't get called on and felt guilted into trying again. Then once my dreaded answering hell was over with and I felt spiritually smug, I then started elbowing NLW so he could feel the guilt about not commenting. NLW liked to wait until the last moment because answering was hell on him too. That and he would give me the excuse that he only liked to answer if he felt that he had something good to add. Then if NLW didn't answer, I would feel upset because he was obviously being selfish and just didn't love god. LOL.

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Hello!

by Scooby-Doo in

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i have been reading this forum for about a year on and off.

it was a great help in discovering the real history of the jws and helped me realize what a controlling religion (cult?

very recently i stopped all contact with my kingdom hall and have quit my study, so i thought it was about the right time to sign up here.. i am (was) the third generation of my family to be involved with the witnesses.

nolongerwaiting

HELLO!!

NLW's wife