Posts by kenpodragon

the other day i was doing some shopping at the local mall with my wife, and she wanted me to go next door to this book store and pick up this book for her.

i went in and picked up the book, and went to the counter to pay for it.

the man looked at the book and it was a title that was not exactly something most men buy.

The other day I was doing some shopping at the local mall with my wife, and she wanted me to go next door to this book store and pick up this book for her. I went in and picked up the book, and went to the counter to pay for it. The man looked at the book and it was a title that was not exactly something most men buy. He said something like, "So you are buying the such-in-such title?" I don't know why, but instead of just simply saying "It's for my wife" and not taking it any further. I went into the "Oh god he thinks I am gay" response and tried to over explain the moment. Why do we do this? Well for me, being raised a Witness, I was taught that certain things were wrong. Homosexuality was evil, and people who slept with people out of wedlock were just plain sinning. These thoughts were reminded to me so much as I grew up from the Kingdom Hall to the Watchtower, that they were stuck in my thoughts. I remember being in High School and seeing this one gay student and thinking that he was evil. I even remember going out in field service and going to the door of a unmarried couple, and thinking they had no chance before God. All of these were the product of the environment I was raised in. So why do these surface today at times, when I no longer feel that way? When my wife and I left the religion and started learning that there were so many different types of people. With their own set of likes and dislikes, with morals that fit them. We learned that despite all of their actions, they were good people. I never thought their would be a time in my life, where I would have gay friends and friends that live together without a marriage license. Even more so, I never thought I would be friends with these humans without even giving their life a second thought or judging them in any way. Yet in all of these things, I sometimes think I have it all settled and yet some times you have actions like what happened to me in the mall at that book store. I know that in life there is not always time to plan how we will react to each thing that will come upon us, and sometimes our unconscious self can be a little bit of the person we left behind. That person always ready to spring to the front to make a fool of us. Yet in the same thought it shows us some of the things we left behind, that time forgot. It tells us that the project that is our life, is never complete and is always in need of a repair from time to time. I use the examples of things above, but there are so many more that I could list. They all represent something's that we sometimes think we have settled and then "wham" they come back to remind us we still have a little bit of the old me in ourselves. So as I did the foolish dance of trying to explain that I was not gay, to this book store attendant who did not care either way. I learned a lesson that day, that sometimes we are less perfect than we even thought we were before we woke up that day. We are never going to be able to fix all that the Witness life did to our conscience, some will make sense and others will seem to come from way out in left field. Some will be that clog of hateful dirt that is jamming the mental pipes. Yet if we can do one simple thing, we can keep those thoughts where they belong. That is that we notice them for what they are, and let our minds realize we may have gone far ... "but we have a long way to go, and many more lessons are over the horizon" Anyone else get these mental thoughts that surprise us from time to time? Things we thought were settled and yet they come up as a little surprise. My thought Dragon

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Can we talk about something deep?

by kenpodragon in

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the other night my mom called me to just talk.

my mother is a jehovah's witness still, so it is not unusual for that to be obvious in the conversation.

now i love my mom very much, and enjoy any time i can spend talking to her.

kenpodragon

I try to be sensitive to my JW relatives feelings. As much as I would like to talk about more at times, I do have plenty of people in my life to do that with. No reason to hurt my mom or relatives, they know what and who I am and yet they still talk to me. No need to throw it in their face. I just wish they left more room open to a few deep discussions.

My thought

Dragon

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To all you pagans, wiccans, witches, and whatnots

by czarofmischief in

so, i'm getting my spirit guides tattooed on my arms.

what unusual things do you guys do to elevate your spirituality, as it were?.

czar

kenpodragon

Let me give you a thought about placement from martial arts, or the understanding of mental Chi ...

When life and the art of martial arts was mastered a dragon was put on the left arm, and a tiger on the right. The thinking behind this was that in the spiritual, the left arm holds the animal of wisdom. While the right arm is ready to defend us and fight. Only when both were used together in balance could either really be victorious.

... so with this in mind you must decide, which animal is which, and put wisdom on your left arm ... which is closest to your heart, or seat of life. Then put strength and power on your right arm, which is the arm that will lead you, behind the left arm of guidance and wisdom. Power can not exist without wisdom.

My thought

Dragon

Edited by - kenpodragon on 24 October 2002 23:40:29

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Would you open the door for two JW's?

by nilfun in

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if they were wearing this?.

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kenpodragon

Any Dragon?

Just wondering

Dragon

35

I'm flattered.

by WildHorses in

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my son has an older friend who is 23 years old.

we call him primo.

he lives out here in the landing(as we call it).

kenpodragon

Reminds me of that movie "How Stella got her grove back"

My thought

Dragon

37

Would you open the door for two JW's?

by nilfun in

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friends

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if they were wearing this?.

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kenpodragon

I think I must come here too much, cos I have actually had (strange) dreams about JWD members

Let's hear them

Dragon

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The Society Encourages Reading 1951-on Bound Volum

by minimus in

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the latest nov. km recommends getting the bound volumes from 1951 onward, because they are still useful to us.

if someone suggests that we shouldn't read the older publications because of the "old light", this km sets the matter straight!

my question is "why on earth would the society recommend re-reading these old volumes"?

kenpodragon

Normally it is because a certain thought was covered throughout the year that they think is worth reviewing. As for not reading old thoughts, they do. They just add that if something seems out of date, remember to cross reference to more current issues for understanding.

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Dragon

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To all you pagans, wiccans, witches, and whatnots

by czarofmischief in

so, i'm getting my spirit guides tattooed on my arms.

what unusual things do you guys do to elevate your spirituality, as it were?.

czar

kenpodragon

I focus on meditation and subconscious images. Have you ever studied "Silva Ultra Mind Systems?" It is a method I use constantly, as it compliments Shamanism greatly. As for my actual guides, it depends. How are you depicting their image and where is the placement? There is something to that after all. Also, what date are you having this done?

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Dragon