Wow Becky,
You brought back some feelings that I hadn't felt in quite a long time.
These are real: I miss being allowed to grow up in a healthy, normal (according to my body's needs) way--being allowed to develop sexually, mentally, emotionally, physically in ways that were good for me, not a religion
This really resonated with me, since my abndonment of the Org. I had to go into counseling for anger-management. During that time I discovered that I had over issues. These were dealt with, and I am still trying to get healed.
The other thing I discovered was that I was not alone. That there are a lot of ex-J-Dubs out there that have sought out professional help.
Dealing with the multitude of negatives that my upbringing in the Dubs had given me was hard and tramatic. However, I am here. Not perfect, not completed but a more whole individual than I was.
So I prefer to look back at the positives of being a Dub (and there were positives, though few and far between).
It's too bad that most of us that were raised as Dubs had no opportunity to grow up in a normal sense. Instead we were worried about Armeggedon, not having "bad associations", and not pursuing our education beyond high school.
All I can say is that I am thankful that my children will not have to go through that. There is no way that I would allow them be a part of the Org.
"That's me in the corner. That's me in the spotlight, losing my religion." REM
And thank God I lost my religion.
The Big Dawg