I'm assuming that "full figured" means "fat". A person who is obese might not only be found to be "physically unattractive" (society is like that today), but there is also the issue of it being very unhealthy. At 44yo you're probably about to see that, if you are not already. Diabetes. Heart disease. High blood pressure. Knee and hip replacement.
Forget about finding the perfect man. Quit drinking booze (if you do). Get on a strict diet (2000 cal or less). And exercise -- walk walk walk. You'll feel better and you'll even look better.
Good luck!