I really like some of the old AA sayings. "And this too shall pass." You will be a different person in a year then you are right now. Enjoy the journey..it is like a rollercoaster ride... ups and downs, spinning around. As long as you continue the ride until the end it is a hoot. Get off the ride in the middle, and it is detrimental to you.
Loosing a relationship even if it was not the best is a "death of a dream." We all have pictures in our brain of what we want for ourselves, now the picture has to change. Change is always painful, but without change we do not grow. You have to grieve to be healthy. It is ok to cry, be sad, etc. As a JW we were never allowed to grieve, but it is human and necessary to do so. I believe it is one reason why there are so many mental health issues with individuals in the borg. The best way to get over anything is to give voice to the pain. Glad you shared your pain with us...we are here for you.
Leslie