Who has my Joie d'vivre ? I demand it back right now!!

by Crumpet 63 Replies latest jw friends

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  Crumpet

  WARNING: Don't read this if you are easily depressed!

  Here's how it is for me right now - no frills:

  Its pants, sh*t, black, doom, gloom and don't spare the melancholy (pronounced mel-ankley if you are me).

  What's brought this on? A collision of things - pressure of study, pressure of work, the spiralling red pile of unpayable bills, the realisation that ex Mr C is actually moving on (well good for him - he should be), but I can't abide the thought of him dating - it makes my stomach turn, my heart sink, my head spin and my soul freeze and the pressure of actually having to deal with life by myself.

  Worst of all is the fact that the small comfort of a body beside me in bed is no longer there. I am 5 months into this novel experience and it doesnt get any easier.

  The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is wish that I hadn't and then I walk to work with wet eyes.

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  Luckily I have a split personality (did anyone see James Nesbitt in Jekyll and Hyde at the weekend? - awesome) so there is the other side of me which takes great pleasure in my pain and can have a good laugh at the pathetic self-pitying crumpet above. However the last few days I have felt my Hyde/hide not so thick skinned and not very good at bringing me out of this.

  Where or where is my joy in life gone? How can I bring myself out of this pit?

  Tips on a postcard please.
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  ozziepost

  Tip #1; It's joie, not joi !!!!
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  ozziepost

  Thread title looks much better now, crumps!
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  ozziepost

  Tip #2: Book a cruise.

  http://www.pocruises.com.au/html/9734.cfm
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  tijkmo

  The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is wish that I hadn't and then I walk to work with wet eyes.

  yeah been there...

  still there some days..

  the only hope i can offer is i'm not there every day now
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  free2think

  (((((((((crumpet))))))))

  Just know that welove you and a here for you honey.

  hugs

  That's it, you get two hugs on saturday now.
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  Gopher

  Hi Crumpet,

  Sorry about the loss of joie d'vivre. Like the saying goes sh*t happens.

  Life can be a bit of a rollercoaster, eh? You have to go through some lows to get back to the highs. I wish it weren't like that.

  I've been through some troubling health problems and other pressures - and for a while I thought I will ALWAYS be feeling worthless and depressed.

  But I'm getting through it. And when you get through it too, the joys you feel will be real and well-earned.

  For now you I can only give you a cross-Atlantic (( hug )).
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  fifi40

  Crumpet dearest.........first of all.......a big hug for you........next try to take a few deep breaths and chill........

  It sounds like you need to put a bit of order and balance back into your life........you might need to actually take a couple of hours out of your busy schedule to do this..........so on a practical front you can organise some sort of plan to get your bills paid off and on a less practical side put some of the 'umph' and fun back into your life..........perhaps invest in some sort of 'self help' book (I know some people hate them) but they can help you re-focus and get motivated...

  Its very hard to give advice when you dont really understand and know all the circumstances.........so here are a few quotes for you da'ling to inspire and soothe your troubled soul...

  'Stop searching. Happiness is right next to you'

  'Very little is needed to make a life happy, it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking'

  'Goals allow you to control the direction of change in your favour'

  'Have long term goals to prevent you from being frustrated by short term failure'

  'Other things and people can stop you temporarily. You are the only one that can do it permanently'

  'In order to get from what was to what will be, you need to go through what is'

  Keep smiling hun........

  Fi
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  DJK

  Stay focused on your studies and your work. Clamp down on spending and things will gradually work themselves out. Prioritise.

  Among those things, Mr C...I sensed this five months ago. I didn't say it then, I'll say it now, I think you loved Mr C more than you were willing to admit, even to yourself. Sitting in a restaurant last week this question came to mind so I wrote it down in my notebook that I carry for the purpose of my book. "Time, does it heal or conceal?" Time does what it does and it's stronger than any reluctance or sheild we hold up to it. In time you will be thinking less of Mr C.

  I am the Happy Monster. I'm going to sprinkle happy dust on you, so smile, this $hit gets expensive.
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  tijkmo

  CHANCE

  LITTLE DID I REALIZE THAT TIME DOES NOT HEAL ANYTHING AT ALL
  LITTLE WONDER THAT WE LOOK FOR EVERY CHANCE TO EVEN UP THE SCORE
  LITTLE POINT IN WASTING TIME JUST WISHING FOR SOMEBODY ELSE’S FALL
  LITTLE CHANCE OF FIXING EVERYTHING BACK TO THE WAY IT WAS BEFORE

  THINK ABOUT THE WAY THINGS TURNED OUT GOING ROUND AND ROUND INSIDE MY HEAD
  THINK ABOUT A GIRL WHO MIGHT HAVE LOVED ME BUT SHE NEVER EVER SAID

  AND I KNOW THAT EVERY DAY I WALK AROUND THE WORLD UPON MY SHOULDER
  AND I KNOW THAT NOW IT’S TIME TO MOVE ALONG BEFORE IT GETS TOO LATE
  EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP ALL THAT’S CHANGED IS I’M JUST ONE DAY OLDER
  STARTING NOW TO THINK THAT WAKING UP AT ALL WAS JUST ONE MORE MISTAKE

  THINK ABOUT THE WAY THINGS TURNED OUT GOING ROUND AND ROUND INSIDE MY HEAD
  THINK ABOUT A GIRL WHO MIGHT HAVE LOVED ME BUT SHE NEVER EVER SAID
  MAYBE SHE IS ALL ALONE OR WAKING UP IN SOMEONE ELSE’S BED
  WONDER IF SHE’S LYING THERE AND WISHING SHE WAS HERE WITH ME INSTEAD

  AND I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING YOU WANNA DO YOU MUST DO FOR YOURSELF
  AND I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING CAN CHANGE SO QUICKLY IN THIS MERRY DANCE
  AND I KNOW THAT WHATEVER GOES WRONG GOES WRONG BECAUSE OF SOMEONE ELSE
  THINKING BOUT HOW MUCH OF WHAT WE DO AND WHO WE ARE IS DOWN TO CHANCE