Mr. Moe, it must be very hard to be a single mom, with all the responsibility of a young child 24/7. I totally understand how you feel you are about to break, maybe you already have in a way. I dont know you that well, and I don't understand what you are trying to say in this post, but you need a break. I have been there myself, just totally felt exhausted and had to go to my bed and close the door. I am thankful to my husband for being there to back me up and take the kids off my hands when I felt I could take no more. Sounds like you need some alone time, is there anyone you really trust to watch little Emmie for just half a day or even a few hours? That would give you time to go to your room, get in your jammies, and curl up and think. You may even fall deep asleep, it may be what your body is needing right now. Sometimes our minds just get overloaded with lifes problems, especially if that have to do with our children.
Taking a few hours for yourself will not solve everything, I am not saying it will at all, but it can help you to make a first step in deciding what your next step will be. Maybe you will decide to go to the doctor, or talk to a trusted friend, but really it will help to just close your eyes and not be a mommie for just a few hours. Sometimes the mommie needs to be taken care of too. Of course again , I dont know what is really the root problem that has you so upset, it is hard to say what to do, if you don't know the whole story. But when I felt I was falling apart, it was nice for someone (my hub) to say ,, go rest and let me help you. I hope you have a support system . Wish I was there to help you , hon... my little girl is 9 and she would love to make over and be a big sister to your little girl. If I lived close I would take her to Chucky Cheese with my kids, and she would have a blast , and you would know she was ok and having fun. Then you could collect your thougts and get a little rest. There is nothing wrong with needing to take care of yourself...Please let us know how you are doing ok... I will be wondering if you are ok. Hugs and love,,,,,,,,,, Dede