FIT IN??
Remember that I was disfellowshipped at eighteen.
I never recovered from that experience spiritually.
I always felt as though I fit in until I reached an older age? Phoenix was the worst, the CO there thought because I was from the south that I was dumb. I guess I proved him right by being there in his way all the time.
I remember one night in the Deer Valley cong., (1996?), they announced that the org needed extra donations. I had been a regular publisher only a couple of months and regular meeting attendance for about a year or so. I ran up to the group of the brothers handling the new program after the Service Meeting and asked for a commitment slip to donate funds. Wow, they looked at me like I had pulled down their jeans and exposed their privates in the middle of the Hall. I never did figure out why they treated me this way? I never put anything else in the contribution box after that, soon it was very difficult to go to the meetings at all. I grew a beard and that kept them away from me? I had these problems in different situations for years.
The congregations where my Dad was present I didn't have as many problems. He was usally an elder or servant and I suppose I was considered off limits.
The problems my kids had were bad for them but I seemed to get through all of that. My kids were marked as bad association even though they were really good kids, they just didn't add up because I guess our field service was limited and not acceptable.
I felt as though I was never doing enough according to the do rights that hovered over the cong.
BREEZE
Edited by - breeze on 6 November 2002 9:28:55