They have designed it to be hard to leave them, they are like an unscupolous compnay that offer 6mths free, then take everything you own via the small print. Writng to them to ask them to stop taking from your life, results in even more taking, your family and friends. No matter why you are leaving no matter how good a person you are...
I am sorry tha you are going through it, give it time and it gets easier. It is important to make a life for yourself in the real world. The life offered in Watchtower, with all the trinket privelages (car park duty/ microphones) have so many conditions and in reality have zero value outisde of that community.
The friends and family you lose, well for me, this is a case of letting other people chose to do as they wish. The desicion to shun is not yours, but your friends and family. I assume you are a good and conscientiable person as are most people, if they shun you, it is for them to live with and explain to themselves and the people around them. There is nothing we can do about it.
Missing family and friends DOES NOT MAKE WATCHTOWER's TEACHINGS TRUE, which though, logical, is sad. But this is the game WT plays and it is hurendously sad and destructive. They are one of the smallest religions of the world, they are statistically the poorest and least educated religious denomination. Having been through it, it all makes sense now and it is a shame to have people you love left behind in it. But that is for them to decide. by leaving we are leading the way....
Stick at it. Put lots of effort in catching up with the people our agein the world who have built up a life for themselves.
Snare x