My departed mother did not become a JW until years after I had ceased being one. She cleverly waited until she was too sickly to experience the exploitation many JW females experience. The JW's (very nice ones, my dad's boss and his wife) came and studied with my parents in the 1950's. My folks loved to impress people, and having a "Bible study" was a golden opportunity to kiss the boss's derriere. After my dad got a cushy federal civil service job, the study was discontinued. Unfortunately, I decided to join the JW's a few years after the study ended, thus keeping everybody on the JW radar.
My mother was the only child of two very loving, simple people who adored her above all else. My grandmother gave birth three times, once to a boy who was stillborn, once to a beautiful girl who died before her first birthday from a childhood illness, and my mother. Being the only surviving child and considered quite beautiful (A doctor offered to adopt her when she was a baby because he was the most beautiful child he had ever seen), she was overprotected, indulged, adored and spoiled to the point that she was quite in love with herself -- to a point.
My mother is a mystery to me. Obviously, she was mentally ill, but in strange and inconsistent ways. She was committed to cleanliness and perfectionism. I was the embarrassment of her life because I was extremely introverted (probably Asperger Syndrome) "crippled" and not so beautiful. My sister was her darling because she was outgoing, funny, curly haired, dimpled and physically perfect. My poor brother was adored because he was male, and having a male was pleasing to my narcissistic sperm donor. I was given to my grandparents so she wouldn't have to explain to everybody how such a perfect specimen as herself gave birth to something so pathetic.
So, the first 11 years of my life meant limited contact with my egg and sperm donors because of living with my grandparents and long hospitalizations (4 months in hospital from 8-11 months, 9 months in hospital at age 7). My grandparents actually loved and cared for me. I am so lucky! My brother and sister had to endure vacillating adoration and humiliation punctuated with abuse (I did, too, when "they" were around, but they mostly weren't with me). When I was 11 years old, I had to go live with my parents because my sister saw through the unfairness of my situation versus hers.
What I can't understand is why my mom chose to be abused and humiliated by my sperm donor when she could have had such a wonderful life. My grandparents would have sacrificed anything to provide her with education or anything else she wanted. She got married two days before her 15th birthday. I understand the teenage stupidity, but the stupidity did not end with adulthood. She was weak and dependent, but that's not how I saw her at the time because of her aggression within the household.
My folks had physical fights and dragged us into them. They called us kids names that people have never called Manson or Dahmer. We had to wear clothing that hid our bruises. My sperm donor was sexually abusive with me (never actually raped me, but always knew just when to back off). When he tried it with my sister, she reported him to my mom. She protested, but really knew the truth, and (according to my sister), would remind him in later years that she could have had him put away for a long time. They had this sado-masochistic game that kept going.
We are all screwed up, but I function much better than the other two despite the fact that the other two were never JW's. Like many other criminals, my folks saw themselves and benevolent and generous, and they often were, particularly to impress those for whom they did not have the contempt bred of familiarity which they harbored for their offspring and their parents. All of my male cousins adore my sperm donor. My mother was adored by almost everyone.
It is quite amusing to me that my mother turned dubdom on its head by rejecting it and then embracing it at a time when the JW's could be of service to her. Her congregation was quite unusual in that they actually made out a schedule for different sisters to come and look in on my mom, each one spending at least an hour with her each time. She was one smart cookie if she chose to be!
Still figuring it out,
SandraC