But the decisions ultimately were mine.
Maybe not nearly as much as you might think!
This concept of a "Free Will" is a myth which was actually generated by Christian theologians.
Humans certainly have a will - but it isn't always free. Humans do make choices, but these are by no means always independent choices. Nearly every choice depends on a lot of biological, social (including religious) and personal conditions which you cannot determine for yourself. These conditioned are determined in part by such things as ones gender, biochemistry, genetic makeup, family background and national culture.
Christian theologians would have us believe that we all have a "Free Will", but the Advertising Industry has always known otherwise!