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  JW's Are People Just Like You and Me

  by Sentinel in

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  hello all my new friends here,.

  when i disassociated myself back in 1981, there were only just a couple instances afterwards, where the jdubs came to my door in the service of their ministry.

  during those times, i would never ever answer the door.

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  scootergirl

  Thanks for the post, Karen.

  I run a daycare and last year an out of town uncle of one of the girls came to pick her up. We got to talking (extremely nice fellow) and it happened that we both knew people from out of town-further into our conversation I finally asked him "are you a Jehovah's Witness?"

  Lo and behold, yes, he was. He use to be an elder, was df'd and was recently reinstated. When I told him I was an df'd dub and asked him if it bothered him to speak to me, he kindly said "no". We talked for quite awhile. He was the most kindest man. Very sincere and never preached to me once. I felt like that big "scarlet letter" was removed from my chest and I was a normal human being and so was he.
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  Anyone w/anxiety disorders? Describe it.

  by ashitaka in

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  i'm curious to see if anyone here has any major anxiety disorders and how it affects their lives.

  as a semi-confession, i think i may have something of this sort, but i'd like a comparison first.

  being a male, i never go to the doctors unless my leg is falling off, so i don't just want to go to a doctor to medicate a problem that could be overcome in other ways.

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  scootergirl

  I too suffered from panic attacks (and think I did as a young person growing up in the borg but it wasn't identified as such). At one point in my life the attacks got extremely bad and the doctor perscribed Xanax which made me feel all doopy. They were to be used in "emergency" situations....fortunately I had a doctor that encouraged me to meditate and also know what my "triggers" are.

  I can happily say that I have been "panic attack" free for four years now! I thought this thread was particularly interesting that this is so common w/xjws.
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  What now, withno PURPOSE?

  by HomebutHiding in

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  it's a difficult thing, once having been a member of the elite, the chosen few, hand-picked by the almighty never to die, to wake up, suddenly or otherwise to the realization that all was a lie.

  of course, when we were jws, we had a purpose in life, and that purpose, along with life itself was a forever kind of thing.

  we were to live forever, and our existance was well-defined for us.

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  scootergirl

  I can relate......I felt such "emptiness" after I left the borg. No longer was I a dub, no longer a RP, no longer did I have any friends (cause all the dubs deserted me and I didn't have that many worldly ones due to the dubs) and no longer did I have a family. I wasn't continually working my ass off for the "prize"....it was terrible. I floundered for awhile...tried my hands at whatever I thought could make me happy. Then......

  I learned to enjoy life. Find my niche and paced myself. I started to find out who the true person I was. I found out my talents and skills. Took up hobbies. I started to enjoy the freedom that came w/leaving the dubs. It has been a long, hard road...but damnit, each day gets so much better.
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  Did you use drugs and go...INSANE!?

  by refiners fire in

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  when i was 27 my brother held a bucks night party for my first marriage and we went to a strip joint.

  de rigeure for the boys bucks night.

  it was all a bit of a none event, so next night he brought around drugs to my house, marijuana.

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  The only thing that ever happened to me after smoking Pot was that a huge bag of Doritos started chasing me and I had to eat it quick before it ate me!....damn.....that was scarey!
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  Were you ashamed of being a witness?

  by sleepy in

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  were you ashamed of being a witness?.

  how did you feel about identifing yourself as a jehovahs witness to others?.

  i often used to hide it because of the stigma attacthed to it.. was anyone actually proud to be one?

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  scootergirl

  Yes, there were times I was ashamed of being a dub. Looking back I think it was mostly when I was in High School and I wanted so much to be doing what normal kids did (i.e., dances, sporting events, dating......etc). It was difficult being so different from everyone else.
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  PLEASE HELP! - WT LAWSUIT PROGRESSING &#8...

  by Naomimara in

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  you may verify my authenticity through silentlambs.

  my civil suit was 1st filed in 1996; withdrawn and re-filed in 1998. the present pleadings standing are the nov. 2000 "second substitute complaint".

  the history of this case is extensive.

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  scootergirl

  I am not questioning your "authenticity" but I have my reservations.......especially since your email is blocked and there is no link to SilentLambs provided by you regarding your case.
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  Do you ignore certain posters?

  by LDH in

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  ok before we get off on the wrong foot this is not a flame war.

  i read a comment by belbab on hillary's post this morning...he remarked that he had asked a question after the 09/11 attack, that no one answered.

  well, i didn't even remember reading it, so i did a simple search.

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  scootergirl

  It all depends on my mood and frame of mind. I can honestly say that I don't avoid any one single poster...
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  Here's My Graduate !

  by somebody in

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  my baby graduated from high school.

  my son is in here too, with her.

  in about 4 years, if things go as planned, i'll be having a big graduation party for the both of them as they both graduate from college together.

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  scootergirl

  What an accomplishment! Congrats!
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  spring thing

  by ballistic in

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  there was an illustration given in the "family" book on how to give your children more freedom as they grew up.

  the illustration was of holding a spring in the palm of your hand.

  if you were to suddenly release the spring, it would bounce off in every direction with no control what so ever.

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  scootergirl

  I remember the spring illustration too!

  For me, I didn't do much of what the jws told me not to do for fear of getting caught and suffering the consequences. But, I do agree, many of what I didn't do was not because it was unhealthy for me, but because the borg told me not to do it.

  It amazes me when I hear of people talking about things that they did while in the borg-kinda like leading two different lives. What amazes me is how they got away with it. Maybe it was the era that I grew up in, or maybe it was that I felt that everyone was watching and I would get narked on....I don't know. But I was scared sh**less and never really went too far off the beaten path.....but when I did I sure did w/gusto!

  I do remember the first year after being df'd...I think I tried everything and anything that was a "no-no" in the borg. Maybe I just needed to get it out of my system.....

  Edited by - scootergirl on 15 June 2002 15:49:25
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  Surviving the Hearing to DF Me.

  by Sentinel in

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  i must say that reading all these posts have really brought back so many memories for me.

  i had a terrible experience at my hearing, which i believe now, really bordered on sexual abuse of the mental kind.. our congregation was small.

  this was difficult for the few young people that attended.

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  scootergirl

  Thank God I never went to my JC........thank God.