When I was in , I really grew to dislike eschatology. Once I realized, it was nothing but opinion that really required leaps and assumptions, it really didn't mean much to me. Considering the WTS really build core theology around it, I couldn't do it anymore.
Then Covid hit and I realized that evangelical Christians are generally assholes too. Everyone was a civil rights expert, or scientist or vaccines were the mark of the beast................it was all just as stupid as what I just came from. Trump just cut off foreign aid for poor nations today. This is who we got behind for FFS.
The scary thing for me is the only religious people I found were great people are Mormons. Not discounting the book of Mormon is a work of fiction.
I have no idea what I believe anymore.