bboyneko, did you work in the art dept. on "The Chaos Factor"?
As for why I got baptised? It seemed like the thing to do at the time. Oddly enough, the pressure didn't come from my parents (much like the pressure to even finish high school didn't come from my parents), but rather from my friends/peers. And not even direct pressure from them, that I remember, just that at 18, it seemed like time, the right thing to do, and I wanted to keep my friends as "peers", liq.
I remember being clueless, especially about the dedication part. Feeling as if I should be having sweeping emotions about spirituality, and feeling a bit as if I was a fraud for not having those deeply spiritual feelings. But hey, you push forward, right? If you don't do the right thing, you certainly aren't going to have any spiritual revelations, right? And then again, the Society doesn't really say you have to feel anything right? Just do it, the blessings will come. If they don't, you didn't do it hard enough, or you are an ingrate.
Choose one, but please don't feel good about yourself.