My experience much like James and Tech 49. An elder over thirty years, chosen to attend first ever Pioneer Service School, yes, back then you had to be recommended by CO and in position to serve where greater need. Appointed Special Pioneer, many DC parts etc. Not blowing my horn, just listing experiences.
I have found a new Ministry of sorts. As more and more are aging and dying, two I know just this week, there is a real need to try to help them.
I resigned as an elder. It shocked many as I was the Coordinator and had many privileges. After a while I found myself missing my teaching assignments. I have always researched Bible Commentaries and such and tried to share interesting things instead of reading Hebrew 10 or Matthew 24 or 2 Timothy 3 during EVERY part!
Thus my "ministry." I am fiinding that when visiting older ones now I carefully point out how we were not prepared for our current circumstances by what we were taught. When the "Friends" don't feel threatened they open up more. In fact when I pray with these older ones, I am very direct with Jehovah telling him of our disappointments. They are surprised because they have never said those things in prayer themselves. I asked one Sister who expresses herself that way. "Do you think Jehovah knows you are disappointed? Then why not discuss it with him?" I then remind them that it is NOT Jehovah who has set up this disappointment but the organization. My wife is shocked too when we find that many share our doubts and disappointments, they just don't have anyone to discuss it with without the fear of reprisal.
I know where this can lead but still feel I am helping some very sincere people at a time in life they really need it. I am constantly pressured to serve again. And it is nice to hear people tell me they miss my teaching etc. but that can be just an Ego trip for me if I'm not careful. What is my true motive? And what am I willing to pay for it? My wife has very serious health issues, the reason I gave for resigning, and while we BOTH see many flaws, she still wants to attend some. So I go. Like one of the Brothers mentioned, I give Bible Highlights comments from the Bible not the WT, they must be different because many comment on them as such, "never knew that" etc.
Sorry for the length of post and certainly don't mean to call attention to myself, but I see the need to help those who have never thought for themselves before. I realize it may cause me problems the more outspoken I become, but I feel a desire to do this.
Thanks for this forum.