Posts by songmistress

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What reason is there to live???

by songmistress in

this is a for real question, not just hypothetical.

some of you are aware that i am going through a very rough time.

i have been diagnosed with chronic major depression, probably from childhood.

songmistress

This is a for real question, not just hypothetical. Some of you are aware that I am going through a very rough time. I have been diagnosed with chronic major depression, probably from childhood. My doctor is working on getting correct medication levels and I am in therapy so medical bases are covered.

One of the biggest questions I have right now is bottom line, why is life worth living??

I know all the standard types of reasons having to do with love and family ect. I do believe God exists, although the form and nature of God tends to elude me at this time. I do however do not see or feel God as a being that would condemn us for simply doing the best we can with this life.

Thanks in advance for considering my question

Blessings to all

Cheryl

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(((((((Tinkerbell))))))))

by CC Ryder in

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poor tink had to be rushed to the hospital early this morning 2:00am.

she went to bed fine but after several hours of pain and discomfort it got so bad she woke me up.

she had severe chest pain and pain in the center of her shoulder blades.

songmistress

((((((((Tink & CC)))))))))

Best wishes for a good outcome.

Blessings

Cheryl

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How to help a friend?

by City Fan in

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well after over 100 posts this is my first thread.

but i thought that this subject was important enough to start a topic and i hope some of you will be able to give me some good advice.. to set the scene: a very close friend of mine is a nurse training to be an anaesthetist.

he recently had a jw call on him and he'd invited him in and they'd discussed the blood issue.

songmistress

Hi City,

Wow, that is sticky. I recently read Amazing's experience of leaving the JW and helping his family out. He used a series of questions that caused his family to think the issues through for themselves and led them to their own conclusion. Amazing's experiences are off the forum and you can get to them by clicking on the little world thingy (dontcha just love technical jargon, lol) by his name. I think it may be helpful in getting you some tools to work with.

Good luck to you,

Song

16

SHUT UP AND.................

by plmkrzy in

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stop whining!

ok maybe that is a bit too strong.

but you read it.

songmistress

Hi Plm,

I appreciate and identify with everything you're saying. I like it when I go on the board and see words describing what I'm feeling, because I have a hard time expressing myself . It also helps me to know I really am not alone. We do have a special kind of brother/sisterhood based on shared experience that others just cannot understand. I think of all the blank stares I get from people who have never been JW's as I try to explain what it was like.

Now if we could just manage to organize a great big festival where we could all meet up and be this family in person.

Thanks plm. It looks like you are ready for the next level whatever that will prove to be. Enjoy the journey.

Blessings,

Song

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Dream of Going Back

by professor in

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i awoke from sleep about a half hour ago from a dream in which i returned to the witnesses.

i had become so upset from losing my family and friends that i decided to return and seek reinstatement even though secretly in my heart i did not believe (i was trying to fool the elders).. i awoke from the dream with illusions of actually following through with this idea.

it took me about 5 minutes to arrive at reality.

songmistress

**Tammy wrote: I'm at the KH or circus assembly or d'strict convention and at first I am going through the motions**

OK hon, is that a freudian slip or what!!! Circus of the damned is more like it. LOL

Blessings

Cheryl

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Dog bites minister, is spared death sentence

by ashitaka in

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dog bites minister, is spared death sentence.

canadian press.

winnipeg a dog that bit a jehovah's witness minister after she ignored beware of dog signs has been spared a death sentence by a winnipeg court.. piotr skawinski, the dog's owner, testified he had two visible warning signs up the day that ethel mannetje walked into his back yard.. he also said his six-year-old labrador-german shepherd cross named boss has never bitten anyone before and is good with children.. "for the court to put my dog to sleep because he was in his own boundaries and somebody stepped into it, not paying attention, i think that's just bad," mr. skawinski said.. "for a lady that's been going door to door for i don't know how many years and still hasn't learned to look for a beware of dog sign i don't know what the lady was thinking.".

songmistress

OK guys, my warped sense of humor is taking over. See what happens when you change the placement of punctuation.

Dog bites, minister is spared death sentence

edited to add: Lol scully, yea them JW's taste nasty

Edited by - songmistress on 6 September 2002 21:1:5

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Dream of Going Back

by professor in

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i awoke from sleep about a half hour ago from a dream in which i returned to the witnesses.

i had become so upset from losing my family and friends that i decided to return and seek reinstatement even though secretly in my heart i did not believe (i was trying to fool the elders).. i awoke from the dream with illusions of actually following through with this idea.

it took me about 5 minutes to arrive at reality.

songmistress

I have similar dreams often. I find myself back in the JW's and wondering why I am there. Most of the dreams take place in an assembly type setting.

For the last four years, I belonged to a barbershop chorus. I started having dreams that they had become JW's. Have been trying to figure out just what that means. Anyone got their dream dictionary handy. LOL

Blessings

Cheryl

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Rebound Relationships

by onacruse in

i really don't know where to start with this....it's so personal, and i'm so confused.

when i left bethel, i was a basket case, and married my first wife while i was still in mental/emotional limboland.

i loved her from the bottom of my heart (as best i can imagine what that means), and meant what i promised "till death do us part.

songmistress

((((Craig))))

I feel like I owe you an apology for taking over in chat a earlier this evening. I have a tendancy to forget that others may also be going through their own *manure*. The pain of having a relationship not work has got to be the worst pain emotionally. And the fear of hurting someone you care about despite best intentions can be paralysing. As you know, I have no suggestions for you at this time, but I can offer you friendship and a hearing ear once I get over my meltdown.

I won't say much more at this time. But know that I love you and value your friendship. I have every confidence you will find an answer to your dilemma.

Blessings

Cheryl of the welcome to my world class

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Transitions after leaving the borg..experiences?

by LyinEyes in

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i am just going to put this out here to see how you all feel about this.......... here goes............... do you think that being a jw , especially raised in it, has taken away your chance of ever trusting yourself ever again in regards to what you believe in?

i mean , you can read books, many by very educated men/women, you can read every bible printed, you can read every self help book, but do you find yourself at times just not caring anymore?

i mean once your trust has been broken, what is the point in reading another man's version of what truth/reality is?

songmistress

(((DeeDee)))

I know just what you mean. I have been gone for six years physically, but I was heading that way for years before that. As far as the peace. I feel no peace when I am on a frantic search for answers, but feel the peace when I am able to let go and just let happen what the Source of All reveals to me. (this is the closest I can come to a description of God/dess). The peace or lack there of does come and go, but it is getting better every day. Each day I strive to connect with the Source and find that if I can keep it simple, it goes much better.

In my mind, there is a difference between spirituality and religion. Spirituality has more to do with who you are and religion is more how you choose to make expression.

My view on religion or any other way of expression is a lot like the parable of the blind men and the elephant. Each one described the elephant based on the part they were touching, while none of them were able to get a complete picture.

I mentioned in another thread that I think we are spiritual beings having a human experience. We have to determine what we are here to learn, remember, experience, ect, and that is very different for every one.

I hope this makes sense. If not just question and I will clarify.

Blessings and success on your journey

Cheryl

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I'm just curious.........

by WildHorses in

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i want to get an idea of how many people have left the org in the past five years.

which of the following years did you leave?.

1998 i left.

songmistress

I decided not even to go to the Memorial when I left. I expected some reaction to it, but nobody seemed to notice. One person contacted me a couple of months later (my best friend at the time) and the elders made a call on me the following year before Memorial. (gotta get the Mem numbers up). I'd say they proved themselves for what they are. But this is a story for my bio if I ever get around to it.

Blessings

Song