(((((Far North)))))
Welcome to the forum!!
I too, have spent a good maaaaaaany sessions of therapy dealing with jw issues. Don't beat yourself up because it is taking time to come to terms with all of it. It took years and years of indoctrination to get to the point you found yourself at. It will take time to de-program and re-program yourself, as well.
My sense is that a therapist will help us find a healthier path. The walk is still ours and it will be a long one, and there will be challenges along the way. At least now you are choosing your path. It is a self-directed path, rather than a path that was chosen FOR you. You will walk at your own pace now. You may stop and look at the scenery along the way now. You may ask questions now. You will do what feels healthy for you.
For me, this forum feels like a healthy place to start. . .
By the way, my email is open if you want to talk, I'm also on MSN Messenger. . .
Love,
ESTEE