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  I Am So Sad

  by Windchaser in

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  january 26 is a particularly hard day for me.

  two of my children were born on this day, five years apart.

  i can't wish either one of them a happy birthday.

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  ESTEE

  ((((((((((Windy!))))))))))

  I think I know how you feel about those baaaaad days. . . I have two kids who shun me. When their birthday comes around, or my son's anniversary . . . those days are just plain shi**y. (rhymes with kitty)

  My therapist assured me, "Stay with the feelings of pain . . . and transform them into something beautiful . . ." Argh! That was/is soooo hard to do!

  I liked SheilaM's response, when she suggested looking at your old photo albums and talking to your children. My sense is that would feel very healing. I believe that there is such a thing as a "cosmic connection", and somehow - - - on some other level - - - your children will know. I believe our children still love us, they are struggling with their loyalties to their jw-isms vs. their loyalties to mom. It is not a comfortable "place" for them to be, either. It is unnatural to cut their mom out of their life. Hopefully one day, they will soften their hearts toward you/me.

  I don't know what it would be like to have lost a child in death. However, I certainly do know what it feels like to think that my kids view me as dead.

  In the meantime, our lives continue. Know that you are beloved by everyone here on this forum. And thanks for sharing your day with us. . .we are here for ya, Windy!!! Vent away!!

  (((((HUGS)))))

  Esther
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  What makes you special?

  by JH in

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  2. friends

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  do you feel as if you are just like everyone else, or do you feel unique?

  in what way are you special?edited by - jh on 23 january 2003 19:26:26.

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  ESTEE

  Do you want an alphabetical list?

  Or do you want it in chronological order?

  Or do you want it in book form?

  Love,

  ESTEE
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  Danish Police Shoot KH Teddy Bear

  by Nathan Natas in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  http://www.alertnet.org/thenews/newsdesk/sc2363725

  danish police shoot teddy at jehovah's witness hall.

  copenhagen, jan 23 (reuters) - a danish bomb squad shot to pieces a teddy bear left on the doorstep of a jehovah's witness hall on thursday evening with a note saying it contained a bomb, police said.. a group of jehovah's witnesses on their way into a meeting had found the cuddly toy with a note reading: "if you touch me i will blow up.

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  ESTEE

  Do you suppose the jws are afraid? . . . because of their ever-waning reputation?

  Doh! What am I thinking? <blond streak> . . .JWs are THE religion of FEAR!!!!

  ESTEE
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  One reason I enjoy this site

  by freedom96 in

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  2. friends

  as i was growing up, i never thought in a million years i would enjoy talk radio.

  how boring, i thought.

  isn't there some good music on?

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  ESTEE

  When my mom was disfellowshipped . . . before internet. . . she was isolated and alone in the world. She lived in a smallish community of 10,000 . . . and was shunned. It was very hard for her to be in a place where she would run into JWs anywhere she went . . . and be treated like she did not exist . . .as in DEAD. She was married to my stepdad - - - who was not jw - - - and she didn't talk to him about her jw issues. She felt very lonely. After 15 years of being df'd and shunned, she went back to the org that treated her so badly.

  Well, now we have the internet and I feel like all I have to do when I want to discuss the jw issues, or if I feel alone, I go on-line. I vent my frustrations. . . and meet new friends . . . and feel accepted. I don't have to feel like a leper when I am in here.

  While I was jw, I did not fully comprehend how much - - - or to what degree - - - the jw-isms were not working for me. Seeing and being involved with the on-going dialogues on the forum has helped me to put words to my feelings. This forum is educating me and strengthening me, so I will never be tempted to go back to the jws, just to feel accepted.

  Being disfellowshipped does not have to be a lonely existence anymore. I realize that my jw kids have issues and that is why they shun me. I realize that I may continue to live my own life in a way that feels right for me. I do not have to let emotional blackmail shame me back to the jws.

  That is why I enjoy this site. I wear my disfellowshipment PROUDLY!

  You are my family now.

  Love,

  ESTEE
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  The Truth About "New Light"

  by Farkel in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  ah!

  new light!

  what dub worth his salt doesn't eagerly anticipate each district assembly or watchtower magazine to "glean" any "new light" that might be presented?

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  ESTEE

  hmmmmm. . .Farkel, do you suppose. . .?

  The Holy Spirit(TM) coulda slipped up . . . again?

  Just wunderin' . . .

  ESTEE
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  MAJOR TV SHOW TO DISCUSS JW CHILD ABUSE

  by Scully in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  major canadian tv show to discuss jw child

  abuse scandal

  this is to alert the jw world that a major tv documentary is set to go in canada on the jw child sex abuse issue.

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  ESTEE

  I think crooklyn is gonna need lotsa lotsa lotsa portapotties!!!

  Can you Visualize the headlines?

  First photo: portapotties all in a row (sorry, photo not available)

  Headline and next photo: Major Mayhem as elders scramble in panic!!!
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  Would You Kiss A Smoker?

  by Englishman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  just wondering!.

  i remember when i was about 16 having a snog with a girl who smoked.

  it really was like sticking your tongue into an old ash tray.

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  ESTEE

  Cigarette smoke? . . . <gag> <choke> <cough> <heave>

  I believe it is unhealthy to smoke or be around smoke, which would also include kissing a smoker.

  ESTEE
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  Scully, from wednesday

  by wednesday in

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  scully,.

  i am so sorry if my comment about your avator led u to believe i thought your current one was not cute.

  it is very cute.. i am just a big fan of the power puff girls.

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  (((((Scully)))))

  Yes, you are a woman! . . . and I daresay a beautiful woman!!

  And also assertive!!! . . . to reclaim your life and your stolen childhood as you and the other Silent Lambs are doing!!!!!!

  You go girl!!!

  Much love for all your hard work!

  ESTEE
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  ATTN: JW'S...WHERE IS YOUR LOVE???????

  by Jacqueline in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  where is the love that the societyclaims is amongst it's people?

  i began studying january 2001. i had met a jw man that i truly fell in love with and found that i would at least look into the religion to see if it was for me.

  i began studying with his sister, till she consciously no longer felt that she could continue studying with me, due to the fact that she did not approve of her brother dating me, since i was not a jw.

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  (((((Jacqueline)))))

  I'm sooo sorry to hear how badly you were treated by the jws, honey. . .

  You precious sweetheart. . .

  It may help to remember. . .That is THEIR game . . . and you may choose to play . . . or not play.

  The choice is yours. . .and if hubby is seeing the light . . .well, that is just awesome! You may choose to both stop playing . . . and start to live YOUR life!!!

  Love ya,

  ESTEE
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  "Webmaster's blues"

  by Simon in

  1. social
  2. entertainment

  or a lamentable attempt at poetry .... oh lord won't you buy me, a nice t1 line.

  my download's too big and i don't have the time.

  and just as it gets to one-hundred percent.

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  ESTEE

  GAWD!!!! . . .now he's got me cryin' . . .

  ESTEE