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  Poll- Did you have sex while unmarried when you were a JW?

  by FreeofGuilt in

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  i probably was the biggest slut in the kh- sex before baptized @ 13- sex after baptism when i was 17. oral sex about 5 times w/ different guys from the kh-- what can i say, i loved being a rebel, & love sex- i think the elders liked it to because i had to tell them the details (some guy always told), & they would probably get off later- never was disfellowshipped-- i am a good actress, but i thought the "holy spirit" guided them, well not because they believed my sobbing- --:-) kristine

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  nowisee

  define "sex".

  technically i was a virgin when i married.
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  God, where are you?

  by onacruse in

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  i haven't seen you posting here lately, and i just wondered if everything is ok?.

  i've always considered you my best friend.

  but lately i've been thinking about a lot of things, and it occurred to me: you've never said one word to me in my entire life, even though i've sent you thousands of messages; not exactly what friends do to each other.

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  big tex,

  as usual you have told a story beautifully, and in this case a beautiful story.

  i'm sure there will be those who call it a coincidence, nothing more, nothing less. i see it as God having answered that little boy's prayer. that is my belief and faith.

  very best wishes, nowisee
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  Political Compass Test

  by Aztec in

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  i'm sure this has been posted before but i really enjoyed it.. http://www.digitalronin.f2s.com/politicalcompass/questionnaire.pl?page=1.

  i think like the dalai lama...lol!

  economic left/right: -3.62. authoritarian/libertarian: -5.33.

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  nowisee

  el/r: -4.12

  auth/lib: -3.64

  though i found i would have to qualify many of the statements making it hard to strongly agree/disagree on too many issues.

  i too am closest to dalai lama on the chart. i knew i had something in common with you, ~aztec! (besides our ethnic heritage which is also the same).

  best wishes, nowisee
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  How To Stop Worrying And Start Living

  by garybuss in

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  i have this written on a wall somewhere.. .

  if i can do something about it, why worry?.

  if i can't do anything about it, why worry?.

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  nowisee

  that was great, gary. worrying is so unhealthy. not worrying sometimes actually eliminates the source of worry!

  best wishes, nowisee
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  Shunned? You are better off....

  by DJ in

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  i have to tell you that if you are currently shunned, although it may be painful....you are actually better off imo.

  having had it both ways now, i am convinced that it was less painful than being halfway accepted (as i am now because my dad is sick).

  my conscience is clear and it feels so good but at the same time i am in more pain than when i was shunned.

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  nowisee

  dj,

  i have only just now seen this thread. know that my arms are around you and i am sending you love.

  everything that i would say has already been said by others here.

  you have the satisfaction of knowing that you have done the right thing despite the odds against it.

  much love, nowisee
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  Fred Franz and high IQ

  by petespal2002 in

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  i recall reading somewhere that in his lifetime fred franz was listed as one of the most intelligent men in the usa.

  can anyone think to what i am referring?

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  nowisee

  it was sometime in the mid to late 60's. my family was invited to a slide show of freddy's recent overseas trip in a gathering of friends. (my father by this time was taking issue with certain wt flip-flops.)

  freddy was narrating and russ kirzen was handling the projector. several of the slides had been taken vertically, and in order to view them they were inserted into the projector vertically, partially obscuring the image at the top and bottom, and exposing a sliver of bright white light on either side. all throughout the slideshow freddy would berate russell for not showing the picture correctly and kept asking him to adjust. he just couldn't seem to understand what the problem was.

  my father was convinced at that time that he was going senile.

  the only other thing i remember about the narration was one slide showing freddy in the water in a bathing suit. he said a crab bit his toe and how happy he was that the crab did not bite him higher up.
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  God, where are you?

  by onacruse in

  1. watchtower
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  i haven't seen you posting here lately, and i just wondered if everything is ok?.

  i've always considered you my best friend.

  but lately i've been thinking about a lot of things, and it occurred to me: you've never said one word to me in my entire life, even though i've sent you thousands of messages; not exactly what friends do to each other.

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  nowisee

  in the 27 years since i left wts i have undergone my own personal evolution, at first thinking i was so stupid i would never figure it out, so what was the use in trying. i was agnostic, then disbelieving in anything but whatever fun i could have, then agnostic, then searching, now Christian.

  in the process of accepting Christ as my Savior i also cried out, wondering if ever i would have the certainty of being sure of what i was doing. i searched, i knocked, i sought. sometimes it seemed as if nothing would ever make sense. some things still don't. but when i was at my lowest i had prayers answered. has no one here ever had a prayer answered?

  again when i was very low i found that the center verse of the bible, psalm ll8:8 gave me peace of mind. i didn't need to have every possible answer to every possible question. but i could wait and trust that God would make things clear in time.

  God does not speak to me audibly, but i sense his presence in my life. i have drawn close to Him. i have made changes in this past year, that i never thought i would or could, or would even desire for myself. (did i EVER think i would be calling myself a Christian?? -- oh no no no)

  i have not been formally educated, not versed in philosophy, logic, debate, etc. some of the things i have read on this forum (like the just read thread on polytheism/pantheism posted by sirona) have made my head spin.

  one thing i have discovered is that it takes every bit as much faith if not more to believe in the non-existence of God than to believe that He lives.

  "when it comes to the origin of life there are only two possibilities: creation or spontaneous generation. there is no third way. spontaneous generation was disproved one hundred years ago, but that leads us to only one other conclusion, that of supernatural creation. we cannot accept that on philosophical grounds; therefore, we choose to believe the impossible: that life arose spontaneously by chance." -- george wald, "the origin of life", scientific american, may 1954

  maybe in the end it all boils down to faith.

  best wishes, nowisee
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  Still as lost and confused as ever..

  by berylblue in

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  ...and i can't believe i posted such an ugly photo of myself...that's not my real hair...it's a perm i got to grow out a spiked do..... anyway, i've missed you all.

  got an email from the jw i wrote a long time ago..she basically said, "satan is much smarter than you, and he has you fooled.

  this is jehovah's organization....i hope you enjoy your new friends, they will not be around in a few years.

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  dear rosemarie,

  i just have a feeling that no matter what any of us say you will have questions and doubts as i had those same questions and doubts for 27 years after leaving wts. i too was full of fear.

  you MUST do yourself the justice of reading l) crisis of conscience by ray franz. and speaking for myself, 2) answering jehovah's witnesses subject by subject by david reed was also so powerful. you MUST find out for yourself.

  i wish you peace in your mind and spirit.

  love, nowisee
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  My Letter to the Elders in My Late Father's Congregation

  by cruzanheart in

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  well, guys, here it is.

  it's going in the mail tomorrow.

  it's for me but, dad, it's also for you.

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  nowisee

  dear nina,

  well i came on the scene here on 3/8 and somehow i missed this thread. i do remember seeing your name appear over and over and then big tex answered one of my posts in a very touching, kind, way that was so meaningful to me.

  over the last couple of months i was more or less able to piece together what had happened (especially when jenny posted her story). but this is the first time i read your words. all i can say now is that my sympathy is truly heartfelt. i also have enormous respect for the both of you. your love and integrity come shining through at all times, and you truly are inspiring for your courage and resiliency and determination in the face of such discouraging circumstances to do what is right.

  my very best wishes to your family, with love,

  nowisee
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  What's the answer

  by kproscts in

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  what's the answer?.

  * what's greater than god and worse than the devil?.

  * what the poor have and the rich need?.

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  nowisee

  l) - water

  2) - iceberg

  3) ??