You are not crazy or weird if you use professional help to deal with your jw past. Maybe this will help you to view your past in a healthy way.
You want to be "normal" or you wished you had a "normal" life. I can understand that and sometimes I also wish I didn't grow up as a jw.
But now as I look back, I accept my past. It made me stronger especially that I was able to follow my conscience instead of man made rules.
Not everything of my jw past was bad. In fact I had a very nice and loving childhood.
And I don't know if it's a good goal just to be "normal." Actually I believe everyone is special. You are "special." Everyone (also in your eyes "normal"people) have their own smaller or bigger problems, hurtful things in their past they have to deal with.
Try to accept your past as it is. It is past. If possible try to view it in the best possible way. And accept it. The present and future is important. You are courageous following your conscience and your heart.