nmfr - TTATT stands for The Truth about The Truth.
Welcome fakefading. Not everyone on here is an apostate - there are a few people like me who have never been a JW but are concerned about JW friends and relatives. (A close relative of mine converted some years back and I use this site as ammunition for any discussions we get into.) As a never-in I'm not sure I can give you much advice, but what I would say from my reading of the postings on this site is that a slow fade may be the least painful exit route and give you the best chance of maintaining contact with family and friends.