You have my sympathy.
I'm off to church this morning, it's also a "special" Mothers Day service.Lots of fun with the Sunday school doing a little turn etc... Cakes, sweets and coffee/tea after. I never realized I could have so much fun being a Christian!!!!
I think if you dread worshipping God, in the way the jw's do, then there's no point doing it.
Sorry to be so blunt but it's for your own good.