Hi Psyc,
Welcome to the board. Everyone thus far has given you really good info. I hope you check it out for yourself. You are not really a JW until your baptism. You can ask the elders about this and they will tell you. So you are not held to the same standards as the "real" JWs. It is good that you are questioning now, because once you are baptised, you can NEVER question without being thrown out of the org. Also, most JWs put on a good face around those who they are trying to bring into the Borg, oh, I mean Org.
I also went to many chuches before becoming a JW. My experience is a little unique because I could never stand reading WTs and books and only used the bible for the most part. Once I got baptised and started really reading the Mags, I could see that they were in error on many of the basic teachings of Christ. It then took a long time to get out of the org. I am not labeled an Apostate. The elder my hubby and I studied with made a lot of things seem like conscience matters, WRONG! we did not find out he lied until after we were baptized.
I now have a personal relationship with my God and his son Jesus. I pray daily and read my bible daily. I am attending a non-denominational church that stresses God's Grace above Works, and I enjoy the fellowship. I have learned a big lesson from being in the WT, that looking for a religion that has ALL truth is wrong. There is none that have this and there never will be unless God himself accomplishes this. The WT has a view that they are all in unity but what they really have is conformity. Any group claiming a market on ALL truth is a group I avoid like the plague because they are a cult. Not even the Apostles understood everything.
I also learned that as a Christian, I am never to judge anyone, even those of other religions. And that there are good teachings and God fearing people in all the major religions in the world. Most believe in a creator like Christians. Even those who do not believe in a God have morals. We are all part of the human race and therefore are already in a "world wide brotherhood". We all should respect each other's views. The bible is ONLY for Christians and therefore to push it down someone elses throat is crazy. If Christ wants someone to follow him, HE will call them to do so. Are christians more moral than everyone else belonging to another religion? In my experince NO. And sometimes I find the opposite as most Christians feel it is their duty to save the world, and can be very judgemental and try to put standards on people that they themselves cannot uphold.
Whatever you decide, I hope you have peace in your life. Do I feel the WT is cultish, Yes. So please beware.
To confession,
I wish I had read your post BEFORE I got baptised. It would have saved me 12 years of angst. Good Post!