Thanks all -- especially Anti-Christ and SPAZnik for sharing those strong and painful experiences...
"All the same consciousness" -- a revelation or a symptom (cf. the "Nietzsche" thread)? Or -- as Dostoevsky might ask -- why not both?
Rapunzel, I believeyour literary input is very welcome here. As we emerge from a terribly poor subculture (JWs) into a moderately poor culture (the average "world"), I believe we need the very best of fictions (literature, theatre, movies)to keep on playing our ever-changing roles without taking ourselves too seriously.
Btw I would add to your impressive list a 20th-century German author who helped me tremendously at the crossroads, Hermann Hesse, especially his Steppenwolf which centers on a cultural identity crisis and ends with the words Einmal würde ich das Lachen lernen -- someday I would learn to laugh, too.
SPAZnik: that was great.