I concluded that God did, in fact, care, but only about himself and his agenda. Anyone and everyone else was expendable. He was interested only in his private war with the Devil and using whatever was necessary to fight him.
Except thats where it doesn't work on another level. If god truly was only worried about his personal situation and his agenda, he supposedly could have effortlessly wiped out the devil and all else who opposed him. In fact, any letting the devil hang around all these millenia is only complicating what he could have done in seconds. So you're left with these two alternatives if you accept hte biblical account so far: either God somehow is using this whole crazy experiment to help out humans/other creatures OOOOR God is just blatantly messing with people cruelly.
After my awakening, it became clear that God had intervened to make sure man couldn't rule himself, which negated the entire concept. He disrupted man's language at Babel because he was concerned, maybe even afraid, of what humanity could accomplish as a united entity. But the issue of sovereignty by its very nature demands that he not interfere in any way.
This is exactly right. The entire concept of the legit 'test' is a major farce.