EDIT: To Fulltime.
:) I'm just trying to illustrate that certain emotions that are often attributed to a religious experience are simply within our capacity to experience with or without spirituality. The emotions I went through were inspired by mental clarity. Had I been inclined to look to the spiritual, I would have thought god was talking to me. But since the epiphany was actually the realization that god didn't exist, that was impossible.
Often believers talk about such experiences as confirmation that god exists. I don't doubt they have the experiences, I just doubt the source. They seem to think that atheists are incapable of strong and overwhelming emotion. But this is part of being human. These moments would exist with or without religion. In a sense, there is absolutely nothing special about them. So when someone tells me they had this emotional moment, I'm not impressed enough to consider that their interpretation of such a moment is accurate. They seem to think that these feelings came to them externally. But if that were true, and I was being sent a message, and that message was there is no god, then how does that support their subjective understanding of the spiritual world? It doesn't.
I don't follow atheist rules. I don't downplay my experience. What happened, happened and some atheists would find it distasteful to express such a moment. I don't care. That was the moment when I understood myself better and got to be me without the constant inventory. It was significant. The atheist life is not without it's thrills.
And the moment alone debunked the myth that such experiences are spiritual. They are emotional and mental.
NC