Hi everyone, I've been around a few weeks and really enjoy the site. I was a born in that never was baptised and passively faded as circumstances allowed.
I had an ephiphany a few months back to look up JW on the internet for no apparent reason. What a revelation! (No pun intended.) I purchased COC and read it and I have to be honest, it was painful to read.
Even though I knew the org was not for me, I still had a certain amount of respect for it. I quickly realized this was lingering mind conditioning and was literally sickened to my stomach and would have to set the book down frequently as more and more things were revealed.
Since then, I have been on a personal quest to try to sort my own feeelings out and try to make sense of how damaged I am as a result of growing up in a high control environment, presided over by a mentally unstable father and mother who it seems were hell bent on making sure my sister and I were the "perfect" witness children at all costs.
It is so comforting to read so many other people's thoughts and memories on this site and others. I truly am not alone in my feelings as I thought I was. And even though I have not chatted with anyone yet, the overwhelming amount of love and genuine concern for others that I see and feel from this board makes me feel like I've finally found a real family.
elderelite: Your "fistbump" story reminds of years ago when I was working with other "brothers" on replacing the roof on the KH, the CO scolded me and and two others in front of everyone about the worldliness of wearing our ball caps backwards. That was one of the few times I remember even the supposedly most spiritual of the group grumble that it wasn't biblical, just one guy's opinion.
Thanks for having this place to help with the healing process