the love of my life would read something considered innapropriate if I asked her
Wanna put your money where your mouth is? Show her the following websites:
http://www.freeminds.org
http://www.silentlambs.org
Then watch her start to either get edgy, tell you to turn it off, or tell you it's all bullshit.
I didn't originally give you much advice, because I've been repeating myself for the past few weeks. You're one of the many others who have come on here and has stated your difficulties with dating a JW.
First of all, let me tell you that love does NOT conquer all. Love is just a combination of emotions, actions, and reactions. That's all. It's not something special, it's just a certain way people show and respond to emotions. Love doesn't have any power, it's not strong or weak, and it's not going to conquer the WTS who has taken the "love" out of it's members.
I'm also going to tell you a story about a girl I once dated, or at least tried to date. She gave me her phone number, and told me to call and set up a date. I called her, but her mom wouldn't let her out of the house. I'd call occasionally to see if we could hook up outside of school, but apparently I was calling too much (once every two weeks). Her dad finally answered and invited me over to kick my ass. I thought "My love for her is stronger than anything!" A month later, I got into a car accident. I called her place and wanted to tell her what had happened. Her mother answered and again wouldn't let me talk to her. I told her what had happened, and she just said, "Well, I'll tell her". I didn't get a phone call from her, nothing. It was turning out to be too much trouble. I forgot about her and moved on. I dated a girl who's father was happy to have me dating his daughter. The headaches were gone.
Moral of the story? Don't put yourself through hell trying to gain happiness from another human being. It will come naturally.
You don't really know me personally. I don't mean to be rude or anything, but if you knew me you'd know I wouldn't cave.
Hey! It's Stacy Smith!! LOL! Humans may all be different, but they all have their natural desires, actions, and reactions. If someone came up to you, punched you in the head, and called you an ugly piece of horse shit, would you be happy? I'd be pissed right off, as I'm sure many others here would be. But you're different, so you're gonna be happy that someone's abusing you, right?
Here's another natural human desire: We want what we can't have. The fact that getting this person to become your girlfriend is difficult is making you work harder for it. It's natural for humans to do this. But there's always a price to pay: time and frustration. If you're a sucker for wasting time and being frustrated, then keep persuing.