still a lil scared but definately leaving

by OklaXwitness 59 Replies latest social family

  • love2Bworldly
    love2Bworldly

    OklaXwitness--I wish you much success! Hope you are prepared for the emotional, rocky road ahead. Whatever you do--seek to further your education for a good career. Just some motherly advice.

  • TheListener
    TheListener

    Welcome to the board OklaX. I hope things work out well for you.

  • vitty
    vitty

    This really makes me scared. You are so brave, as an adult I wish I had your courage!!!!

    Are your parents so bad that you cannot talk to them, are you baptized that really makes a difference.

    Tell them you love them, but you cannot believe its the only truth.

    I feel sorry for you and your mum and dad.

    Goodluck

  • Daunt
    Daunt

    Im in much of the same situation as you my friend. I'm not leaving now since I don't have the adequate abilities to take care of myself. But, I would suggest when you leave, talk to them about it. And do not stop going to school under no circumstances. And really think twice about leaving. Your parents might call the police and try to search for you at your friends house. Could be a lot of consequences. But atm I'm jealous of your bravery also.

  • Bas
    Bas

    Welcome to the board oklaX, seems like you have some uncertain times ahead of you and I admire your bravery you're displaying by confronting it. Hope it works out for you, but thoroughly examine your options before proceeding. you're in a vulnerable position.

    Good luck!

    Bas

  • OklaXwitness
    OklaXwitness

    im not going to talk to them today but im not going to go to the meeting im going to talk to a school counselor tomorrow i mean thats what they are there for is to make you feel better anyway after that im gonna talk to them about it tomorrow my whole family is in this its horrible my grandma asked me are you going to the meeting tonight (tuesday) and when i said im not sure she was all like WHAT DO U MEAN UR NOT SURE YOU HAVE TOO!!!! and then she was liek theres nothing out there blah blah blah you might as well kill yourself

    that made me feel bad but it made me see the extent that the "truth" had on thier minds im not moving out im really afraid they are going to kick me out i really wanna stay

    i would try and stay in and help out other people to start asking questions but i cant take it anymore

    i need alot of encouragement i mean the witnesses empart conformity lack of courage they cant have you being courageous or it would conflict with the grip they have on you i was raised with this luckily i have lots of "bad association" (true friends) they havent talked to me about religion but they have shown me that thier lives are filled with something other than emptiness ive lied and lied to hang out with them without my parents knowing i got far away enough from the society to look at apostate literature the one thing that first did it for me was acknowledgeing that they were a cult i read this page well basically just the summary did it for me http://www.xjw.com/whatcult.html i read it and saw that almost all the points in it were right about the witnesses and this book wasnt even directed twoards the witnesses it was directed twoards the moonies anyway my parents are going to hate it they know that i am questioning the witnesses because i told my mom i dont believe this is the truth anyway they are trying to get me to change my mind but nothing will now im gone and im gonna let em know it tomorrow whenever i read like a couple pages in the Beyond Jehovah's Witnesses website i knew it that this is wrong and that im right and my parents are wrong i knew they were going to try and force it back on me right then but im convinced this is wrong and im getting out as fast as possible its like a giant wieght was lifted off me i felt free the religious freedom i had never felt that this wasnt the only right thing that its not right that there is everything out there and ive been dabbling in darkness from it

    IM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    im going to tell my parents tomorrow after i talk to my school counselor and then im going straight to an elders house and im going to tell him that im leaving im only going to start talking about how much its wrong how much lies there are how much coruption how much brainwashing how they lure u in and make you never want to leave if they ask me but if they dont then i dont care if they know or not i know that even if i do tell them the societies grip on them will tighten thier hearts twoards me

    wish me luck for tomorrow i hope i can be courageous its a big step for me from the conformity the society has rasied me in

  • IP_SEC
    IP_SEC

    Wow, how'd I miss this thread.

    Good luck to you Okla, nothing for me to say to you, as it's already been said.

    I'm impressed by your clear thinking and young age. Stay close, let us know how we can help you.

    IPSec

    *IPSec wishin he'd been a OklaXwitness when he was 16*

  • LMS-Chef
    LMS-Chef

    Good luck. I hope all goes well. Try not to let the shunning get you down, it is very hard at first. But it is kinda nice after a while. They were very shallow anyway. Take care.

    peace

  • ezekiel3
    ezekiel3

    Good luck my friend. Are you baptized? If not JWs can be fairly lenient with non-baptized kids.

    Regardless, you are making a life choice. Step prudently and give a good witness to your school counselor!!

  • OklaXwitness
    OklaXwitness

    im baptized lol and its just because im a deep person lol im glad i started questioning it all thats the first thing you need is an independant mind after that its easy youve already broken the societies grip

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