Yes it embarrasses me that I was a JW in my past, I rarely, if ever discuss it with anyone who would not know about my past.
lilybird
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Are you embarrassed?
by desib77 indoes anyone else find themselves embarrassed about their jw past?
i find that when people that know what i used to be ask me about it i am completely embarrassed by how foolish their beliefs sound especially things like the blood issue.
i can't stand when someone will say "why did you believe such and such....?
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Why God refuses to interfere
by greendawn inmany people ask why doesn't god interefere to help suffering mankind?
biblically the answer is very simple: mankind exercise their freedom of choice and in so doing chose to be slaves to sin or the demons if you like.
god respects that choice however foolish it may be.
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lilybird
trevor.. your post expresses exactly my beliefs in what God really is.. that God(which means love for life and others) is within each of us.. I find more peace in my life feeling that as humans we no longer have to fear pleasing a remote God up there somewhere...These are the beliefs that work for me in my life...
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Did You Believe "The End" Was Going To Come In Your Lifetime?
by minimus inwhen the society came out in 1966 with the info that 6000 years of man's existence would come to an end by 1975, i thought it was a crock.
for 9 long years, all jws did was speculate about "when" the great tribulation was going to begin.
i always thought of jesus' words about "nobody knowing the day or the hour"----yet jehovah's witnesses figured it out?
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lilybird
Yes.. when I was a teenager in the year 1975, when they preached it was a marked year and then when nothing happened, they preached we must not serve God on timelines and that we must trust that Jah has his own agenda and we must be faithful and patient..I guess I finally ran out of patience and didn't really care anymore whether armeggedon was coming or not..I wanted to live my life before it was too late to really enjoy it.. ---My way ..not the way the society says I should live.
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How do you deal with death now
by unique1 ini must say, it was easier being a jw, believing that i would in fact be resurrected to a paradise earth and having the faith that would definitely happen.
i still believe in the bible to the extent that i believe jesus led a good life and if we follow his example we will lead one to.
however, the bible was written by men, who are imperfect and therefore i don't feel we can take the entire book at face value as truth.
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lilybird
I feel like some others here..that I fear death less now than as a JW..The way I see it..before I was born I had no awareness of the living world and so after death, I am sure it will be just as peaceful..Im not worried, there is nothing any of us can do to change death or what happens after.But what ever is waiting for us..I am sure we don't need to fear it at all.
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The Watchtower Society Reforms! Would you go back?
by Fleshybirdfodder ini don't think i would under any circumstances.
under what criteria would you?
or wouldn't you?
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lilybird
I would never return in any case because I have now learned to value the freedom of living as my family and I choose to. I no longer believe in an all-powerful God as some do.. but I do know that if I did choose to worship a God I don't need any kind of organized religion to tell me how to worship him.I wouldn't have the patience to put up with the scrutiny of other JWs and elders as to how I worship or how I live my life.
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how would you respond
by besty ini had a shepherding call a while back and expressed some doubts about the org.
one of the elders asked 'if you know what you know now, would you still have got baptised?
sensing a bit of a leading question, i ducked it by replying 'impossible to say'
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lilybird
Hi besty.. welcome to the board..Its always good when you have control as far as dealing with the elders.Its good to hear you know how to keep the control right now..The elders seem lost when Dubs don't answer them like good minded controlled Dubs should..Just another reason why this forum is so helpful to everyone..It helped you know how to deal with a situation like that.
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Why this forum was important to me....my story (Loooong post!)
by never too late to be myseld inbecause it made me think and face what i tried to push back.
i was born in the truth.
somehow i decided i would be a nice little jw and f*ck the rest.
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lilybird
Thanks for sharing your story. You've lived a life full of sad times yet you are stronger than you give yourself credit for . You managed to look after yourself , get a great education and learn what life outside the org is all about.. I too can identify with a lot of your feelings , I was raised as a JW and my family was dysfunctional also..You have a great writing style and I look forward to reading more posts from you.
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Recovering from Meeting Withdrawl
by Nosferatu inafter i quit going to meetings, tuesdays, thursdays, and sundays felt really strange.
it was so weird having all this time to myself that i never had before.
it took about 1-2 years for me to fully adjust to this new found free time.. anyone else experience this?
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lilybird
At the time we left, we had 3 small kids.. ages 5, 3 and 4 months.. so I was so busy I didn't have time to think much about missing meetings. I do remember though a feeling of total peace and bliss that I didn't have to plan nap time and meals around meeting time.
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Visual Methodologies and Watchtower Illustrations
by slimboyfat ini have been reading a fascinating book about various strategies for studying the meaning of images: visual methodologies by gillian rose.
various approaches covered include compositional analysis, content analysis, psychoanalysis, semiology and discourse analysis.
it struck me how ripe watchtower imagery would be to such scrutiny, and how subtle trends in ideological emphases may be identified through the visual iconography that may be less apparent in the overt expositions of watcthower written texts.
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lilybird
It does seem that the picture is presenting the society's opinion that women are beneath men and they are only useful for household duties. In the pic..the women are all busy with chores.. gardening sweeping.. while the men are involved in leisure activities.. reading... riding a bike...and what does that mean with the women clutching the post??? She can't leave until the sweeping is finished??? Looks like the twilight zone to me.
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Satanists, do you fear them or trash them?
by greendawn inare you afraid of the power of occultists and satanists?
do you think their magical arts can truly harm people?
or are you confident that their power can easily be neutralised by reciting biblical verses or by wearing a crucifix?
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lilybird
I don't fear Satanists as the only harmful thing in this world are other humans. I haven't seen any evidence yet of demons or other spirits harming others. For that matter I haven't heard of Satanists doing harm to others.. As for their beliefs,, its a free world.. if it makes you happy and you aren't hurting anyone else..its your business who or what you worship.. Its not going to make any difference in my life..