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Don't be sad, He is real, it's just that the WT society stumbled across something without holding the key, and fears take hold, as you know. Seek Him in the poor, He's there waiting, meek, like His Father, not haughty. You know before they received the Spirit into their 'house', it was asked of the apostles, "why do you stand looking into heaven?"
There's a parable I particularly like that shows how we are to pray and not lose heart. <"In a certain city there was a judge who neither feared God nor regarded man; and there was a widow in that city who kept coming to him and saying, 'Vindicate me against my adversary.' For a while he refused; but afterward he said to himself, 'Though I neither fear God nor regard man, yet because this widow bothers me, I will vindicate her, or she will wear me out by her continual coming.'" And the Lord said, "Hear what the unrighteous judge says. And will not God vindicate his elect, who cry to him day and night? Will he delay long over them? I tell you, he will vindicate them speedily. Nevertheless, when the Son of man comes, will he find faith on earth?">
The teaching is often viewed as vengeance and all the badies copping it; but certain fears alter our perception of God - He is kind and meek.
"A certain person, proud, had a conscience (unjust judge) that didn't really think about God or have regard for others. His soul (the widow), once the spouse of the Holy Spirit, would prompt his conscience to subdue his flesh (the adversary), and it was due to the bother of his soul that he did. Now, if your own conscience is prepared to help you out by continual asking, how much more is God going to help you do what is right if you ask Him, and quickly.
Nevertheless, will He find faith?
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