If you haven't graduated, one idea might be to get some part-time work and just bank it, use it, milk it, leverage it. You will need a social support system before too long, so see to that. If you >REALLY< need to ferret out that rat that you smell, well, then, you need to do that. If they have you fearing Armageddon, well, you need to live in the world that exists. If they have you feeling weak in faith, well, that's just because you've accumulated facts. (They hate that.) If you think they're hiding something, well, that's because they have nothing. (They have no cards. No cards.)
Looks like you may have a New Years to commemorate and hold in remembrance of your solemn freedom. A Memorial with margaritas, doritos and guac, and an observance shared by time-zones' worth of real-people-that-actually-exist-and-are-not-vulture-fodder-via-divine-genocide. The last part is 'making strange' what is difficult to conceptualize when first getting out.