Posts by Synergy

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confusion?

by playground456 in

i'm a 27 year old lesbian, that is very active within jw organization.

i had a girlfriend for two years, but of course we couldn't see eye to eye on certain issues.

after that relationship went up in flames i moved on.

I applaud you for sharing your feelings so openly. It is difficult not being in a relationship no matter the sexual orientation you have. In my case, I am desperately looking for a mate and I feel the same void you do. However, it scares me that you have thought of killing yourself. That is JW thinking coming out. I used to think that way all the time. I felt that I couldn't measure up and I was bad on the inside and I would never be happy or whole. I felt as though I was an alien around everyone else. I think that may be a little of how you feel. My prayer for you is going to be that you will seek good relationships...in every aspect of life. The one you need to start with is GOD. Where does He want you to be? Where will you find him? On your knees, not in the kingdom hall. I don't want to sound "preachy" that's not my goal and it's not my style. I just know what worked for me. How now I look back over my life and think, why did I let the JW's steal my life and my youth and make me be someone I'm not? I too thought of killing myself for years and never had the guts to follow through. I am so glad that I didn't. Don't stay in the JW's if it makes you feel this way. Seek counceling. Seek help to get out of it. If you need to just for a little while as you go through the beginning phases, get anti depressants and get focused on you. It's not worth killing yourself over. Your life is beautiful. God wants you to live it. God wants you to be happy. God wants you to be free and find freedom in him. If there is anything I can do please let me know. You sound like a wonderful person that feels trapped. I wish you the best in your spiritual journey.

Renee

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The Point of this Site?

by Samael in

jw
friends

forgive me if i sound rude or this question has been answered elsewhere, as i am a neophyte and discovered your site through google in my religious studies.

from reading the various posts it seems that this site serves nothing more than an iconoclastic purpose.

was your experience as jw's so traumatic that now you can but put forth such effort to daemonize the religion?

Synergy

Sexually abused. Physically abused. Mentally & Emotionally abused. Denied the right of every child, an education. Forbidden to go to elementary, high school or college. Married off into the cult at 17 to breed. Traumatic? YOU BETCHA!

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One of the long term effects of growing up a JW...

by Pwned in

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friends

for me anyways.. i still have nightmares about demon attacks.

that was the one belief that really had a grip on me growing up.

i was terrified of demons and even thought i was being attacked one night for bringing home a toy with a pagan symbol (ying-yang) on it.

Synergy

Even though I've been out for a long time and I'm very much involved in my church and I do not think of demons like I used to, YES! I still have nightmares sometimes. In the recent past, I had nightmares, the same one recurring, about demons attacking me, on a nightly basis and it lasted a couple weeks. Keep praying and know that it isn't because "You left JW's so you belong to Satan" that''s horse crap!

Renee (of the UNdemonized class)

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Please Read, need advise or a good attorney

by Icansaylucky in

i need some input or advice or an attorney that would like to take on some jws.

just a little history about myself so its clear about my connection to this situation.

i am 50 yrs old and have been out of the organization for 26 years.

Synergy

I trust my attorney with everything...he even won the blood case for my kids against the JW ex husband. Got me everything I wanted in divorce/visitation/child support and can't stand that stupid religion. So if you're not too far away from FL I'll give you his info just send PM me.

Renee (of the legally blonde class)

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Ongoing Saga; Privacy Commission, WTS and my attempt to get personal files

by jwfacts in

i posted a while ago that i had asked the aust bethel for my personal records under the privacy act 1988. bethel refused.

i then lodged a complaint with the privacy commission.

bethel signed a stat dec that they are not covered by the privacy act, and so the case was closed.

Synergy

I want my records SOOOO BAD! I want to put them in my book. I had he largest publishers record card of any child I know. Some months were over 130 hours. I want to put the copies of them in print for everyone to see. I also want the papers on my committee cases. If anyone knows how to get them in the US let me know!

Renee (pleading for papers class)

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How closely does your online personality match the REAL you?

by nicolaou in

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friends

i think i come across as a bit agressive online but in reality i know i'm extremely chilled - lazy some might say.

i'm greek you see and we do so love to argue the toss - loudly and insistently - and then have a game of tavli (backgammon) afterwards.

thing is most of my family are still jw's and as i can't do it with them you guys end up getting both barrels!!.

Synergy

100%! I'm exactly the same.

Renee (of the Big Balls Online AND Off class)

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its what they see, its what they read.

by KW13 in

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friends

we all have a lot of experiences as ex-jw's.. i find it so frustrating when the witnesses are 'fore-warned' against these apostates.

people that can potentially save their life when it gets to things like blood, save their family when its association and let them see the real truth.. were made out to be the bad guys, one question and you suddenly become an apostate.

a label thats on par with the devil to any and every witness.

Synergy

Thank you for your rant. Those are just what I (and I'm sure others) need to read sometimes so that I Don't feel Isolated. When I come on here I see people who feel just like I do and it makes me feel so much better. I hope my posts help others feel connected to God and to others when they read them. Big Hugs to you all!

Renee (of the It's All Better Now Class)

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What kind of things did you do when going door to door to add time?

by whyizit in

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friends

i was intrigued by an earlier post.

the point was made that the jws are going door-to-door to meet a quota and are not really concerned about the people they are witnessing to, but only in saving their own butts.

has anyone ever had a non-jw friend and asked them if they could talk about jehovah for a while to them, in order to fill the time they need?

Synergy

Stopped at McDonalds and Hardees, ordered food and gave tracts to the cashier. I'm sure they laughed so hard when we left. But boy were we proud as peacocks back then.

Renee (of the embarrassed to show my face in fast food joints class)

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OMG - I just found a 1990 Yearly JW Calendar...

by TresHappy in

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friends

amongst my things...i forgot they listed the weekend days with a to do - in service... .

ugh!

i'm pulling my hair out!

Synergy

I remember those calendars! My dad went on and on when they came out of how great it was that the service was on there. I was upset because I was already a child homeschooled and forced to pioneer. My service schedule was 7:30-4:00 Mon, Tues, Wed and Friday. I didn't want to go on Saturday! But when that came out, it didn't matter that I already put in 90 hours a month but I had to drag myself out on Saturdays too! Why? Because the "loving brothers went to the trouble of putting it on the calendar for us and if we didn't go it would show disrespect for Jehovah's Theocratic Arrangement. What shit! I hate my parents for that I just hate it! By the way,,,I was 11 in 1990.

Renee (of the cheated out of childhood class)

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Ok..How Can I Put This.....

by Legolas in

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friends

ok... i remember ( or at least what i recall..lol) how god had always dealt with people in the bible...kinda like there was 'proof' of him for all those thousands of years...right?

....well how come nothing in the last nearly two thousand years?

if there was a god how come he let the bible get distorted and let all these religions start?

Synergy

I do know what you mean. I've felt that way before. But what I have found true for me is that He DOES reveal himself but not with water to wine or parting seas or lightning from heaven. He reveals Himself to those that search for him and it's on a one to one personal basis. I've truely looked for him and begged him to show me he was there. He finally did. I still have battles of faith but I really have a relationship with Him now and I don't know how I ever was a beleiver in the WT. I can see why so many leave it and become anti god and anti religion. I am in fact anti religion, and so is the church I go to. We don't have man made rules and we don't judge. We just congregate to praise God in prayer and song and fellowship with beleivers and other than that, it's between you and your creator what you do. I hope and pray that you will connect with Him and find that faith in Him that you're missing at this moment. Don't feel bad for ever having doubts either. Just press on and daily ask God to show you he's there...He Will, I Promise.

Renee (of there is God and Love after Cults, class)