My decision to leave was based part on all the crap I lived through as a JW and it didn't end when I got married. The organization slowly was trying to put a wedge in my married life and how I raised my kids. It went on and on and on. I had enough of it and being disfellowshipped before I lost my fear of shunning.
I didn't want to lose my family, but I knew it was inevitable if I left. I told my sister that I had thought about leaving and she was of course appauled with an added shreak. I asked her "what are you all going to do, not talk to me anymore? I will live" I also asked my mom if the society is going to stand before God when I am judged and explain why I did the things I did. Since they aren't ,then I would rather make my own decisions on how to live my life because at least when I stand before God (by myself) I know why I did what I did.
Once I left I felt so free finally, but I also was angry because I lost my family. I also still feared the big A as well as demons. The biggest help was reading. I read anything I could on different religions as well as eastern religion. I also read Crisis of Concience and In Search of Christian Freedom. And don't forget to learn about Cults and how they work. This all leads to freedom of JWs and their doctrine.
I still harbour a fair amount of hate for this home dividing, judgemental false religion, but I am doing sooooo much better than when I was a JW. I also find life so much more worthwhile, living in the here and now instead of my mind focused on the paradise. Reading the bible without the watchtower or the organization mindset I found it is directed more to individuals than to a group.
Good luck finding your freedom. It is there for everyone you just have to find it.
Moanzy