i also had many problems with suicidal tendancies. the worst blow was when my sister started seeing this worldly guy and went through a rough time deciding what to do about it. she told me later that she had some suicidal thoughts because of all the guilt she had from it and not being able to be happy with someone and be a J-dub at the same time. that got me mad enough to realize how unhealthy the jw's realy are... aoxo
Posts by aoxo
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Another JW Suicide
by orangefatcat inyes last thursday a young brother who was in the same hall as me but in the other cong.
and he was 29, a newborn baby and a 2or 3 year old and young wife committed suicide.
was killed here in our town of newmarket by a train.
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Why Johnny Can't Add
by wanderlustguy instole this from another site.... math 1950-2005:.
last week i purchased a burger at burger king for.
the counter girl took my $2 and i was digging.
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aoxo
one time i went to burger king and the total was like $8.53 or something. i gave the guy $10 and he gave me back a twenty. that was back in the day so i had to be honest.
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Brandi Binder - JW with half a brain?
by freedomlover inhowdy ya all!
we were watching 20/20 tonight and this girl was on whose name was brandi binder and she had half her brain removed and is alive and well.
quite a remarkable story actually.
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aoxo
there was talk about some reputable magazine like sports illustrated or something like that with a picture of michael jorden the milwaukee basketball player sitting at his office desk with one of the jw mags lying on the table. don't know if this was an urban legand but several jdubs i know said that they saw the picture. so everyone was like "yeay he's going to be a witness!" there was also a news report on the milwaukee station fox 6 news several years ago about this little boy who was killed (i think for some gang related thing) and in his pockets was found a paradise tract, so again everyone was like "maybe he'll make it in the new system!" if this girl had half a brain ( im assuming that it is the cerebral cortex that was removed ) then its no wonder that she may find the witness teachings interesting.
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"No fear" t shirts, forbidden???
by free2beme inin the 1990's there were a lot of things that had the saying "no fear" on it and one of the local elders figured out that this meant we live life and do things without fear.
so that basically we could try things and take chances, without the normal fear we associate with things in life.
well in a special needs talk they decided that "no fear" t shirts should not be worn by good witnesses and they asked that we not wear them to witness gatherings, or even in life.
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aoxo
yes, us too. we were supposed to fear god. also, they said that it insinuated that we take chances that could be risky and life threatening. if we died from taking such chances then we would not be ressurected. no fear was encouraging us to view the world like satan wants us to.
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Did anyone experience that feeling at the end of assemblies, or C/O visits?
by dido ini`m new on here so don`t know if this subject has been covered, but i was wondering if anyone else experienced that overwhelming feeling at the end of assemblies, or when the c/o visited and gave his talk, there was a different feeling in the air, and i always thought it was `jehovah`s spirit`.
now i`m out and have learnt a lot about the borg, and know all their dastardly deeds, i can`t understand what that feeling was.
it can`t have been his spirit, as i don`t believe now that the borg is the `truth`.
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aoxo
but i dont wanna stay behind and clean the assembly hall mom! i need to go home and jack off after looking at all these sisters in their tight skirts and dresses. im soooo horny...
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Were YOU Gossiped About In The Congregation?
by minimus indo you know who the worst offenders were??
the elders.
the elders, because they were "shepherds and overseers" believed they had the right to talk about you, your family, your job, your personality and so forth.....they pick apart any male in the hall under the guise of seeing whther someone "might qualify for privileges".
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aoxo
at age 18 i had befriended another sister who just moved to the cong. we got along great as just friends. we spent a summer hanging out which felt like several years. we were so much alike but had to stop hanging out because people in the cong. were gossiping about how we were dating and would probably end up having sex in the car in some desolate parking lot. i elders even had a meeting about it with her mother who came up with the rule (probably a "suggestion" from the elders) that we had to have someone with us when we hung out like a chaperone even though we weren't dating. in a cong. where i had no friends they took away my only friend.
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One of the long term effects of growing up a JW...
by Pwned infor me anyways.. i still have nightmares about demon attacks.
that was the one belief that really had a grip on me growing up.
i was terrified of demons and even thought i was being attacked one night for bringing home a toy with a pagan symbol (ying-yang) on it.
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aoxo
i have also had many nightmares about satanic people trying to sacrifice me or deamons after me. now i view them as silly nonsence. i remember seeing ghost busters at the theaters and i had a fear of slimer the friendly green ghost for about a year. now i like to watch scary movies and can watch about three of them a night by myself in the dark and then go to bed without any problems. i think its nonsence and don't believe in the urban legands or demonic stories i see in the movies. if there were deamons i think they would be very different than what we have been used to hearing about.
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Is God dirt?
by MsMcDucket inlegolas, got me to thinking on this.
genesis: so god created man in his own image, in the image of god he created him; male and female he created them.... by the sweat of your brow you will eat your food until you return to the ground, since from it you were taken; for dust you are and to dust you will return.
ok, he created man in his own image and man was made from dirt?
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aoxo
God is what happens when man has too much time on his hands...
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The Increasing Degradation of Women in the Watchtower Society.
by Dogpatch infrom towerwatcher:the increasing degradation of women in the watchtower society.
the lifestyle of a woman as one of jehovah's witnesses is certainly not an easy job.
it is a well known fact that most of the work that takes place within the watchtower society contributing to its success, is due to the backbone of the watchtower which can be described as the women in the congregation.
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aoxo
actualy i had an opposite experiance apf. seemes like the majority of people in service were sisters. not too many brother pioneers and because of that the sisters got realy good at conducting field service meetings. whenever a brother would come in (not that often) everyone would realize that it was him that had to take the lead now. so he would fumble around, try to remember how things were supposed to go and present the daily text while trying to make sence out of it himself. it was realy pathetic how badly the elders tried to wing it when the sisters were right on top of things and already had their car groups arranged while he decided who should go with who. oh and i dont understand why the bible says that women should be in subjection because man was created first. what does that have to do with anything? i think the bible was selectively put together by sexist men.
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JWs abusive by nature.. ?
by osmosis inthe current pop psychology about cults is drawing a very strong parallel between cult victims and "battered woman syndrome".
1. the woman believes that the violence was her fault.. 2. the woman has an inability to place the responsibility for the violence elsewhere.. 3. the woman fears for her life and/or her children's lives.. 4. the woman has an irrational belief that the abuser is omnipresent and omniscient.. i myself have noticed certain abusive patterns in my relationships with my jw relatives.
a lot of it comes from my dad and now when i think about it, i think of it as manipulative, "jedi mind tricks" he tries to play on me.. has anyone else noticed manipulative and/or downright abusive undercurrents among jws?
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aoxo
yes i have. whenever i asked a question or doubted things in the bible like the scripture 1CO 11:14 "does not nature itself teach you that if a man has long hair, it is a dishonor to him..." i would get an evil eye response that basicaly told me to shut up and except it. and then everyone in the car group was silent in a way that made me feel that i should not have brought it up so it left me feeling guilty for doing such an evil thing.