Posts by littleblueuk

I am back from my cruise, hair all braided and all tanned and relaxed. Thanks for telling me to go. I did have a brilliant time. Only had one discussion with my mum about religion.

I met a cruise boyfriend as well. Sexy man from Chicago -- only 700 miles away from me. :( We clicked right away and went on excusions together. We took my mother and sister along with us in Belize and my mother had to admit that she liked him. By the fourth night I was bunking in his cabin, but despite what my mother thinks, we didn't do much. I just had to get away from my sister's snoring. Anyway, my mother said to my sister, "guess Diana's shacked up with Dave. Doesn't surprise me." Guess she thinks I'm a ho. But I don't care. I had fun. I am young(ish) single and my son is away for the summer so my attitude is I can jolly well do whatever I can. Do long distance things ever really work??

But let me tell you about the conversation we had. Actually, it was my sister. I showed her in my mother's bible the NWT in Revelation 1 where it talks about God and the scripture, I was dead, but now I am living. I got my sister to ask my mom who was talking. She said Jehovah. She read another scripture. Who's talking now? Jehovah. Then the clincher. I said, who's talking there? When did Jehovah die?

She's like, he didn't. It's Jesus. Then I said read it again. And she did. And then there was silence. She put the Bible down and said, I'll have to ask.

I felt bad....

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Struggling with the concept of a "God"

by littleblueuk in

this topic, i'm sure, has been discussed many times, but today i am really contemplating the concept of god.. i remember vividly the old testament; the israelites slaughtering everyone in their path, men, women and children at god's direction at jericho, leaving no one alive.

i remember thinking then as a child how cruel that was.

there are many other examples.. then reading the news today i read a section in the world news about india.

littleblueuk

I'm with you, Miligal....

How do you balance God's commandment "thou shalt not kill" (unless, of course, I order you to wipe out an entire city.)

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Struggling with the concept of a "God"

by littleblueuk in

this topic, i'm sure, has been discussed many times, but today i am really contemplating the concept of god.. i remember vividly the old testament; the israelites slaughtering everyone in their path, men, women and children at god's direction at jericho, leaving no one alive.

i remember thinking then as a child how cruel that was.

there are many other examples.. then reading the news today i read a section in the world news about india.

littleblueuk

Satanus,

I hear your argument and you are right as far as the wars, invasions and the caste systems in place. Still doesn't really tie in with a "loving God" who cares so much for mankind (allegedly.)

Thanks for the book recommendation. I am going on a cruise with my JW mother and just might buy it for that!

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Struggling with the concept of a "God"

by littleblueuk in

this topic, i'm sure, has been discussed many times, but today i am really contemplating the concept of god.. i remember vividly the old testament; the israelites slaughtering everyone in their path, men, women and children at god's direction at jericho, leaving no one alive.

i remember thinking then as a child how cruel that was.

there are many other examples.. then reading the news today i read a section in the world news about india.

littleblueuk

This topic, I'm sure, has been discussed many times, but today I am really contemplating the concept of God.

I remember vividly the Old Testament; the Israelites slaughtering everyone in their path, men, women and children at God's direction at Jericho, leaving no one alive. I remember thinking then as a child how cruel that was. There are many other examples.

Then reading the news today I read a section in the world news about India. It featured the food shortage. Something like 75 percent of the children are malnourished. It had a photo of a woman sitting helplessly by her infant's side while the infant was slowing starving to death. Other accounts of parents having to watch their children suffer and die just really breaks my heart...here we are in the US with child obesity rates at record highs and there are millions, if not billions, of people that can't even afford to buy a few cups of flour.

I imagine some will say that it's mankind's doing; corruption and greed that creates this. Yes, perhaps mankind compound it. But my question is WHY would a "loving" God as he so often calls himself in the Bible, allow this kind of suffering on such a monumental scale? What does he think he's accomplishing?

He's often referred to as "our loving father." Would any "loving" parent behave this way? If so, they would be prosecuted for child abuse.

How do you, if you have faith in God, reconcile this contradiction? Is it pure faith? How do you make that leap?

Just wondering...

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Hot Food at the DCs past...What was it like?

by bronzefist in

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i came in to the "loving" organization when they had the nasty cold food so i dont know how good the hot cooked food was.

my ex says it was pretty good, but should i have belived her?

i would think hot food made for a happier time at least for the eaters.. brzfst.

littleblueuk

I remember the disgusting burritos and the hamburgers, the canned veggies and the Shasta. You could also buy a bag a fruit, which was about the only thing I liked. I remember the lunch trays they were served on...and yes, you had to buy tickets to purchase the food. There was always some dumbass who didn't have tickets and had to go to the end of the line.

What sticks with me the most is Yankee Stadium, in about 300 degress of heat, sticking to those horrible plastic flip chairs; and the bathroom smell used to make me want to puke.

Anybody around then -- 70s and 80s at Yankee Stadium???

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I joined Weight Watchers today!

by Princess Daisy Boo in

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i am a bit of a yo yo dieter - i have been dieting ever since i was a teenager, and my role model for this was my mom of course.

in fact one of my very early memories of going shopping with mom and her buying a diet shake mix.

well... i have a little girl who is almost three and i have been thinking about things and i really need to break this cycle of crash diets, losing 5 kgs and picking up 10 once i have lost motivation.

littleblueuk

Good for you..it's a great plan. I use to be a Weight Watcher's leader when I lived in the UK and would be glad to help you out with anything -- especially encourgement!

It's my firm belief that this is the only way to go for long term weight loss...yes, you can do the fad diets or have the plan where the food is shipped to you, but I think it's crucial that people learn how to cook healthier and learn the proper portion sizes. I have seen so many people lose the weight only to gain in back because they have no clue on how to eat once they're on maintenance.

Let me know your progress!!!!

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Embarassed at school for being a Witness - Did this happen to you?

by Witness 007 in

when they played the national anthem everyone stood up...except afew of us witness kids who stood out like a saw thumb....a brother two rows ahead of me had a teacher physically drag him to his feet as he struggled to explain himself...i would sweat like a pig as others pointed and laught and told me off...from then on i would hide in the toilet till i heard the anthem finish then come out.. then theirs birthday holidays, sex education, religious studies which i wanted to do since i would be a star but i was banned by my family.. do you have an embarassing hide like a rat in the toilet moment..

littleblueuk

Add all of these experiences of being a JW to the fact that we were extremely poor (my clothes were bad) and I was overweight. When I look back on it, it's still painful, the abuse, the bullying. However, I think in a way it's made my character stronger and I am well equipped to face the bullies in the workplace. Sometimes negative reinforcement works!!!

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I need someone to talk to..

by littleblueuk in

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i am really feeling depressed.

my relationship with my jw mother is deteriorating rapidly.

i can't even look at her sometimes.

littleblueuk

Thank you, everyone, for being so kind.

No, I was never baptised, although my sister was. I never bought into it. I guess I was too smart. I was the one who always asked impossible questions and got everyone in a tizzy. It was like jigsaw puzzle with a thousand different pieces. Nothing seemed to fit.

I don't know about the cruise...the thought of spending a week in the same cabin with those two makes me think a bath with 100 hungry pirhanas is a better option.

I've thought about going back to counseling but I can't seem to find a counselor that I can relate to. The only people who seem to understand me are ex-JWs, especially the ones who have grown up this way.

I've stopped blaming my mother and father (although he's useless) a long time ago. I realise that's not productive and as an adult, you have to choose your own path, but sometimes I wonder, just sometimes, how would I be if I were raised normally? Would I suffer the severe depression that I do, the failure in relationships that I have that seem to plague me?

I still have three weeks to think about it. I'll see how things are, I guess.

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Book cover poll (The Spanking Room)

by WilliamCoburn in

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please vote for the cover that you feel best fits my book: the spanking room: a childs eye view of the jehovahs witnesses

my goal is simple: to have a cover and title that tells the reader all of the following: this is a true story of what it was like to grow up as a jehovahs witness with

a father who says jesus is the only way to salvation a mother who says the watchtower society is the only way to salvation and a scared little boy caught in between

littleblueuk

The little child, for sure.

Brings tears to my eyes when I think of all the times my arse got hauled back to the coatroom. I was hit with the hanger. Nowadays that would be considered child abuse.