It wasn't so much of posting here but what I have read of other's sharing their experience. It has really helped me to see that much of my self interpreted "craziness" was and is very normal and I just feel a lot more content with life and much more self respect.
I don't check in as often as the beginning but each time I do I learn something new
Thank you all for your bravery, clairity and kindness.xoxoxo