My heart too goes out to everyone that has lost someone by suicide, I lost my Mum to suicide 3 months ago. My Dad is struggling with Depression and the feelings of wanting to join my Mum.
It is heartbreaking as we are struggling coming to terms with the fact Mum has gone and clinging on to Dad for him to stay with us but I know that he has to want to be here and to try over time to make a life for himself. My sister is full on trying to make him go back to meetings and if it is what he wants and it will keep him with us I would be happy.
But anyway enough about me, my thoughts are with you xxxxx