Welcome BoC and thanks for sharing your story.
I feel for you when you say you're Stuck. I wanted to say that you're only stuck if you think you are. Even living in a divided household, you are free to believe as you wish. Even people who don't have JW's in their life, have difficulties in many different areas. It's all in how you view it.
I'm in a similar situation, but I don't go to meetings and my spouse knows how I feel. I do wish I could celebrate birthdays and holidays at home, but usually make the best of those with my friends. And I do feel totally (well almost), free to believe and live as I please.
I'll stop the preaching now ... but just had to put in my 2 cents - I thought it might help...
:)