Reborn,
You are making the right choice in reaching out.
Most on this board have suffered the same feelings of rejection as you & we can relate.
I try to live my life as honestly as possible, as a free man,a slave to no one & its good to be free.
Adjusting to freedom takes time & can be frighting.
Some want to go back to the way it was, like the x-con who willingly commits a crime just so he can return to prison & whats familiar.
Tough it out & give it time, you will make new friends.
Once you learn that , the truth about the 'so called truth' is a lie, what can you do anyway?
"ad astra per aspera" (to the stars through difficulties)