sinedie, Just about all of us know exactly what you are talking about. After about a year of a fade, I am really much happier now, though my friend count is down. My own mind is no longer plagued with guilty feelings about not liking the status quo the borg feeds people. Give yourself time.
PaintedToeNail
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Could you 'Wake Up Happy' if you were an active Witness, knowing what you know now? (A 2012 Convention invitation)
by ScenicViewer ina convention invitation.
i came home the other day and found an invitation to the upcoming district convention in my door.
i don't believe these are left in the doors of the general public, so a well-meaning witness must have been thinking of me, even though i have not been to the kh in about 7 years.. the leading question on the front immediately got my attention, and made my jaw drop a bit.. i thought i would ask the forum, .
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Anyone who has never had post-partum depression cannot possibly understand the completely unwanted and unwarranted feelings that come with it. These feelings are irrational. She never should have killed her children, yet she felt compeled to kill. This is not normal. Her family in Canada seemed to realize how bad things were, as they went fairly frequently to the UK to help her. Was she being treated for her depression? She will never be able to come to grips with her horrible actions.
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My son was murdered today
by truman ini have been on this site daily, almost from its beginning, since i left the jws in 2001, but i have been more of a reader than a poster, as you can see from my post count.
i know few here know me, although i know many of you through reading your posts.
maybe it is not right to ask for support, when i generally stay quietly in the background of this forum, but i want only to speak a human misery of the deepest kind.
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PaintedToeNail
truman-I am sending you hugs and tears on this difficult, difficult day.
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Was everyone surprised by how nice worldly people can be?
by Inisc ini, like most born ins grew up being taught that everyone who was not a jw was inherently wicked, that they were dishonest, unloving, selfish, bad parents who don't care about their children, and also sad empty people with no direction in life.. as i grew older i started to see that this wasn't always true with every one, that what i was taught wasn't equating with what i was seeing.. by high school i could see that my friends at school, (yes worldly friends eek!
) we're actually decent people with morals, they may have engaged in a little fornication here and there but not promiscuously, and they were good honest people, with goals and parents that cared for them.. but after high school i was phsycologicaly bullied into ceasing contact with my friends altogether, leaving me with little contact with outside world, and the cult mentality had more room to grow, not fully, but enough to unconsciously not fully trust 'worldly' people.. however, once i'd left the org and began to meet people again, i was amazed at actually how good, honest, loving, kind, and caring many people can be!
who love their spouses and children and try their very best to be good parents and partners.
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I was always suspicious of everyone. My parents did their best to alienate us from my extended family. I am only now rediscovering these people I lost 30 years ago. They seem to care more about how I am doing than my own parents do. It is a sad thing to contemplate the amount of damage done to those of us here in this regard.
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In Limbo
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PaintedToeNail
Welcome Apollo! I've never heard of them making up a new card, just to DF you. Maybe some of the former elders on this site can answer that question. Isn't it interesting how many times 'encouragement' takes the form of threats and coercion from family and friends?
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My son was murdered today
by truman ini have been on this site daily, almost from its beginning, since i left the jws in 2001, but i have been more of a reader than a poster, as you can see from my post count.
i know few here know me, although i know many of you through reading your posts.
maybe it is not right to ask for support, when i generally stay quietly in the background of this forum, but i want only to speak a human misery of the deepest kind.
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PaintedToeNail
Truman-Just thinking of you and your family today. I hope that you and your family are getting the support you all need right now from those around you. You have the support of all of us here, but sometimes, one needs to feel hugs and support from physical sources. Please give your husband, son and daughter-in-law the love from all of us here.
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T-shirts and shorts dont imply a lack of dignity any more than suits and ties imply dignity
by passwordprotected inwe have to love the thinking of the governing body.. someone t-shirts and shorts imply that their wearer is undignified.
would you agree?
[blog article on this subject].
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PaintedToeNail
steve2-'crimpelene' suits...hahahaha! So true!
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Anxiety attacks and Door to Door Activity...what have you observed?
by Momma-Tossed-Me induring door to door activity in the distant past i have had the experience of witnessing actual anxiety attacks of jw's who could not handle that required preaching on that day and on more than one occasion.. this is what i have seen on multiple occassions.. extreme headaches, upset stomach to the point of vomiting, visible trembling before even approaching the door, arguments with spouses and children, signs of elevated blood pressure, light sensitiity, a total character change, and basicly a complete shut down to the point of limited communication.
yes we all have butterflies in the stomach associated with certain activities but what i am talking about here bodily affliction to the point of physically affecting the individual in some cases for the rest of the day.. these symptoms are obviously present for some newbie to this type of activity but i have observed this from people who have been exposed to this type of work for years.
i think the body just cannot handle the stress anymore, and the marination in the hormones associated with it.
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Nambo-Your comment is, to me, profound! I forgot all about that scripture, but you are right! Not all of us were 'gifted' in the door to door ministry. I reacted like the people in Momma's comment, and had to take anti-anxiety meds to get me through it.
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My son was murdered today
by truman ini have been on this site daily, almost from its beginning, since i left the jws in 2001, but i have been more of a reader than a poster, as you can see from my post count.
i know few here know me, although i know many of you through reading your posts.
maybe it is not right to ask for support, when i generally stay quietly in the background of this forum, but i want only to speak a human misery of the deepest kind.
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PaintedToeNail
truman-You have my deepest, deepest sympathy at the loss of your beloved son. Words cannot express how sorry I am.
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I hate my mother/family
by usualusername inhi people.
i have never had any affection for my mother and this has evolved into full blown hatred.. .
have been to a counsellor for a number of reasons and she described my mother as a sadist.. .
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PaintedToeNail
You get to choose your friends, but you are stuck with whomever are your family...I'm very sorry she has been hurting you this way, no one deserves that.